PS: it is a joy to read your every word... I smile all the way through, your enthusiasm is gorgeous (I feel like barracking for you both from the sideliness) its like a high school romance, except with the life wisdom and experience and enegry of two young mums.. (I get it from I'm a dad perspective and a gay one (in straight clothes) at that...falling in love/being head over heals, how ever it works out is wonderful)..LOL And taking up the whole kerb, two mumd the kids and tge dogs, thats beautiful....!!!!!!
Wow, Rjay! This is freaking awesome. That said, I would like to point out that, generally speaking, straight people are painfully oblivious to gay attractions. If she picks up on your hints, I would bet she is at least questioning. Otherwise, you can tongue-kiss her and she still won't consider the possibility that your are hitting on her. My point is that A) Your touch can't make things weird. She either knows you are into her and is ok with it, or she doesn't and thinks you are just being friendly. So, don't worry about that. and B) Joking aside, you need to prepare yourself for the possibility that she is not aware of and doesn't reciprocate your feelings. From your posts, I take it that you would be ok with that outcome, so that's cool. Good for you.
Thank you for that reality check! Yeah, of course at some point, I will probably be crushed if she doesn't reciprocate my feelings, but I'm trying not to let the fear of that pain stop me before we get there. Interesting point about my touch not making things weird. Of course it's all KINDS of weird for me, but it's a good point. Women are generally very touchy-feely. I could never be like that. It made me supremely uncomfortable.
..... ....however, thats just an idea too... maybe the people behind a re smiling and enjoying you all having fun... glass half full huh
Now all you have to do is escalate a little to "sweet dreams". (Sigh.) I think the arm-touch was a good move too. Strangely, it's those innocuous things that can be sooo intense. If the support of EC has any effect in the RW... you're totally there!
RJay, never feel like a loser for being who you are. I just decided for me I had to know if she was interested or not. She was occupying my every thought. So I put it out there, I'll find out one way or another and then I'll know what direction to go. I'll definitely let you know how it goes.
We just chatted for about 15 minutes in front of her building while the kids played together. While we were talking, I found myself gazing into her eyes, and she didn't look away. I literally felt my heart skipping beats. CRAZY!!! She asked me a question, and I totally tripped over my words. I feel like I was so obviously shaken up by that eye contact. ARGH. When we were saying goodbye, she blew me a kiss with her hand and winked. Which to me means either she is a ditzy straight girl, or we are getting married. The only two possibilities. Haha... After we said goodbye, (her little one always kisses and hugs me about 10 times while V watches us with a big smile), my son started crying his eyes out as we walked away. I asked him what was wrong, and he said he hated to say goodbye to them... that it makes him really sad. (This is not normal for him.) I texted her to let her know what he said, and she sent back a bunch of hearts and wrote "Awwww!" I almost added that I feel the same way! I did tell my son that I felt the same way. I feel like the kids are picking up on the energy. The little one was kissing my son all over his face, and he was picking her up and walking around with her. He and the older one hold hands while they walk. It's all too much adoration!!!
Rjay, All the very best in your sweet friendship with this lovely person. Your story especially resonated with me because I have recently admitted to myself that I too have repressed my feeling and longings for men for most of my life. I too am very attracted to a friend - really the first time I've allowed myself to nurture feelings for a man. I probably won't ever be as brave as you, but I'm still enjoying having the feelings. Again - all the very best!
Hopeless romantic here, to say that really, both of you are doing a good job at escalating and reading/sending signs. (Or, as you say, that all wires are completely crossed.) Can I just complain about my cues going uncaught? Or unsought? I suppose I do it too... Just tell V that she'd be breaking all our hearts here. ;-)
Zumbaqueen, Have you met this woman or is it an online thing with only communicating through email/text? Have you spoken on the phone? I'm so not good with the virtual world...I need to be physically in front of someone to know how I feel about them. Just wondering. Keep us posted. ♥
RJay, What was V's physical response when you touched her arm? Positive, negative, neutral, unfazed? With all that you're describing, I really cannot imagine that she doesn't know what's going on with you. Either she's okay with the attention as you said, or it's some kind of acquiescence. I hope it's the latter. Damn, girl! You do have it bad! LOL. We're all rooting for you here. ♥♥♥
She smiled. As always... Honestly, I'm soooooo paranoid now that she will find this thread somehow. What do think the chances are? I think I found this forum from googling coming out late in life or something like that.