Thanks for the encouraging words it really does mean a lot to have the support of you guys here and I mean this from the bottom of my heart! When I read y’alls words my thoughts are very interesting. I like to try and stay positive and uplifting. It’s just seems like everyone has their stuff so I hate dumping mine... but I’m going to try and give a glimpse of my thoughts... These were my thoughts: When I read your first line... I thought he’s so nice but I’m not! I have days I don’t even want to look myself I the eyes in the mirror because I’m really just damaged... how can someone love someone like me? I can’t love me! Second paragraph... There is so much in there related to this and all the other stuff I really don’t know that I can control the flow of letting the hurt out... and I’m not sure I’m strong enough to handle the weight of it which scares me a lot! Third... it’s funny because I always try and see the bright side... but now that my eyes are opening I don’t see it... it’s weird. I have all kinds of crazy in here that I thought I’d be able to keep to myself... it’s out now!