New year goals 2024

Failed.

5:20 - its progress I suppose but I really thought I was going to nail it. But I just could not maintain the pace in the second half.

 

Thanks, its just disappointing because I had high hopes for this one. It feels like 20 seconds is a lot to knock off too. It's always the same with me on anything athletic, I make initial progress really quickly but then I get stuck on a plateau for ages. It reminds me of when I was a kid, trying to learn how to do an aerial. I was nearly there with it for about a year before I finally got it.

 

5:23 was my best this week, so I’ve gone backwards. And one of my hamstrings started hurting early into the run this morning so I bailed, walked home and got back into bed.

 

Yeah I'll get there, even if its two steps forward, one step back.... Nothing worth doing is ever easy.

Work is picking up a bit though which is good, I have 3 training/weight-loss clients now. I got the last one by chance in the gym car park on Saturday, she had a flat tyre and didn't know what to do. I tried pumping it up but the air was leaking out as fast as it would go in. She asked me if I knew any of the men inside and whether one could put the spare on for her, so I did it myself. Got talking with her and she hired me for 3 sessions a week for 4 weeks. She must have been impressed seeing me handle that big heavy wheel!

 

Forgot to update this - 5:17 is my PB now. Progress for sure, but I was secretly hoping I'd have nailed it by now.

 

It's turned into a grind, that's for sure. I just thought because I've been running so long, that ability I've got for distance endurance and inclines would translate quickly into speed on the flat over short distances. Turns out, no it doesn't. Good job I am stubborn.

 

Have you decided who are the people you’re going to tell?

 

Oh yeah, for sure. Unless you’re naturally gifted, anything athletic is a slog. I don't think I have any natural ability at all for this kind of thing, maybe apart from being small & light. It took me ages to nail the aerial and backflip when I was a kid. Some other girls managed it a lot faster. I hurt myself plenty of times and there were lots of tears out of sheer frustration but I persisted and got there in the end.

 

Yeah I don't suppose an 81 year old would really understand. I tried to tell my mum years ago and was mostly met with confusion. And I was 18 then I think, she would have been 50 ish. But she's pretty backwards, we're from the middle of nowhere in farming country. I ended up with a boyfriend shortly after and it was never mentioned again.

I've never really been one for talking about it with family. I think my brother had suspicions years ago but he's never said anything. Same with co-workers. Just never felt the need to say anything. Obviously it would be very different if I was with a woman instead of a man. My close friends know, I've drunkenly hit on most of them (cringe) and I was fully out at university living a hundred miles from home. But I just don't see any benefit from wearing it like a badge especially with people that don't know me. It's nice to be able to talk to people about it but I find most straight people (apart from my university friends) care very little one way or the other.