Am I actually gender dysphoric or just sexual urges?

I'm sorry I haven't had time to read through it all, but I did some and leaving my thoughts below, so maybe it helps somehow.

Gender dysphoria, the experience of distress when your assigned gender does not match your experience of yourself, can make the complexities of navigating sex, pleasure and connection exponentially more challenging. Dysphoria can impact sex in a number of ways, including your own image of yourself as a sexual being, your understanding of what your wants and needs are, and the ways in which others treat you. One of the most important things to know about gender dysphoria is that it can vary in intensity from person to person. Some people may feel very intense dysphoria about much of their body, while others may only feel a small amount of dysphoria or none at all. Transgender people can feel dysphoric about any part of their bodies. Just like dysphoria varies from person-to-person, what a person feels dysphoric about can change between sexual encounters, or even during a single encounter. Dysphoria can make you rethink the ways in which you experience pleasure. To figure out what feels safe and good for you, the best place to start is with yourself. It might be important to get some support in healing from a therapist, as well as doing personal work and experiment. Having these sexual urges and desires doesn’t mean there’s something wrong with you. Still, if your sexual fantasies or behavior affect your daily activities or cause harm to others, then it might be good to try and reach out to therapist. If you cross-dress because it’s sexually exciting, you’re not alone. There are many others who do and it's okay.

 

I pretty much mean the masturbation and making yourself feel good. It can help figuring yourself out. It's experimenting. I've done it since I was very little. At first I actually thought it might be something to do with my sexual urges too and I think there is. I think about me being dominated as a man by another man a lot. It's nothing to be ashamed for. Though I can see how it's scary and nerve wracking to tell about it to therapist. I haven't talked about it either. I just try to embrace this side and rise my self confidence. Having fetish is nothing strange. It's normal. I have them too. We are sexual beings after all.

 

I see. I try not to see gender on clothing. The most important is what you feel inside and not the fact that you crossdress. Why wouldn't you get a gender dysphoria diagnosis because of it? Sexuality and gender are different things.

 

@Keller gave you some good info, so I don't think there will be a problem getting a diagnosis

 

Yes.

 

Maybe we can help with that anxiety. Maybe if you could find lgbt+ friendly therapist, then you are more braver to talk about it to someone, though I know finding a good therapist in England is it's own process.

 

I've heard some talk about in the Estonian lgbt+ community how it's a long process in England. Even for us Estonians it's long. My committee time is in the year 2024, but others time can go even longer. Some have it in 2026 and so on. So waiting time is years and years long.

 

I pretty much kept it a secret from my parents at first and later told them.