This is a great point. There's some Sisyphean effort in living two lives, for sure & (to totally trash that metaphor) walking around in this hall...
This may be way too much detail, but it's so integral to my story I feel like I need to say it. In my 20's I had been exploring gay porn/erotica a...
Great job, you brave soul!
Hey all - so I'm still talking a lot to the friend I've come out to, working on getting out to meetups, going to Pride this year, etc., but I find...
The small-mindedness of this is so sad and shitty. I wonder if anyone behind this will ever realize how pathetically tiny their worldview is? I'm...
Well, you've articulated it better than I can. I've been repeatedly ambushed by some quease and anxiety since last week (out to friend, meetup)....
Congratulations on having the nerve to get this right. And even though the future isn't clear, that's good in comparison to what might have...
She has been really great. Also, her wife baked me cookies (just snacking on them and realized I wanted to say that on this thread). The sentiment...
I just ... kept it hidden away from everyone, pretended to myself it was just a kink and didn't matter. I don't know if was hard, it was just hard...
I love that about 1/2 the time I'm feeling something new, someone on EC started a thread about it that day. I'm sorry you're feeling down....
Very brave! It's tough, yes, but I felt like a huge weight was off when I spoke to my wife. Well, after :) Rooting for you & your husband. I hope...
JA - thanks for posting this! Some of what you said I've been experiencing lately. I went to a meetup this past week as well (mentioned in another...
A looooong talk with this friend tonight. A thing I recently began to hope for turned out to be true - being able to be gay when talking to...
It was a lot to take in. By the end, even though I felt accepted & everyone I talked to magically got where I was coming from ... I was nearly...
Hmmm. I'm feeling a lot of doubt today. Last night is really challenging what I think it means to be gay. That's not to say I think I'm not, but I...
SO - I made it to the meetup! Honestly, I didn't feel anywhere near as apprehensive as I thought I would. It was mainly small talk, but saying...
Holy crap, I came out to a friend! I had to do it via email because I was so incredibly nervous. Keeping this from her has been weighing on me for...
I'm at work right now, so i can't tap away at my phone for too long, but i wanted to say that this is all incredibly helpful. I'm soooo glad and...
There's a gay meetup group in town & I joined it recently. I think I actually need to meet gay men who could be friends, but ... I'm closeted, I'm...
I can really empathize. My life has followed nearly the same circumstances. I never formed feelings for a guy outside of my marriage (which I'm...
