When did you realise you were gay? or have you always known?

I always knew I was different ever since I could remember. I did not conform to typical gender behaviour as a child. I found about the word gay in grade 6 which made realise I was not the only one out there. I used to force myself to like girls before grade 6; but ever since I can remember I have always had a crush on some guy. My close friends are all gay or at least bi (even though they haven’t accepted it yet or aware of their sexuality).

 

When I was about 10 or so. I told my gradeschool boyfriend at the time that I didn't feel "right" to be in a relationship with him, and he basically told me that he could fix me if we stayed in a relationship.

I was too dumb to drop that boy like a hot potato, but it was when I was 12 or so that I finally let those feelings I had start meaning anything. Budding teenage hormones, I am sure, were not helping anything, but I started having crushes on a few of my close female friends. Someone finally taught me what the word gay meant (unfortunately when they were picking on someone else), and I realized that the word applied to me so I stayed in the closet until sophomore year of high school.

 

Well, I'm not gay, I'm bi. But I think I first knew for sure when I was ten and me and my girl friend 'practiced' kissing. Before that I always looked at women's bodies but it never occured to me until I acted on it.

Lol, and I have always loved boobs. I remember my mum telling me to stop stating at women in the supermarket when I was very young, six or so.

By 12 I was a full on boon creeper

 

As far as liking boys, I think I knew when I was 11 and had sexual experiences with friends on sleepovers. But then parenting and religion and society stepped in and I wasn't able to realize it again until I was 41.

As far as being a straight woman in a man's body, I think I knew that when I was a teenager and saw Madonna videos and wanted to be her. But, again, parenting and religion and society stepped in and I didn't realize it again until age 41. IE-just recently....

 

Up until I was fourteen, I had not been attracted to any one. It didn't phase me, I just assumed I was sexless. Until one fateful day, I was on a forum and I met a guy. I fell in love and realized "Oh, I must be gay, I like dudes now". Our relationship was mostly "Assumed" by me. If my memory serves me correctly, We agreed we were in one but I guess he was into secret polygamy. On a side note, 'I dreamed a dream', From Les Miserables, Perfectly describes that summer.

 

When i hit puberty.. STILL NOT completely OUT and i'm 23.. Get scared everytime i'm about to come out and i get into a quick relationship with a man. Its just so hard to say 'i'm a lesbian' (scared to join a minority who is constantly persecuted for being sexually attracted to people of the same sex) and i cant try and 'fix' myself anymore (not implying that homosexuality is wrong but most of the world does)..

 

Well...started to notice it when I was about ten (although there had been little signs even before that...like being in love with several Disney princesses and making my Barbie dolls make out with each other...hum), denied it for a couple of years, accepting it at 12/13 and starting to come out to people now at 15 (pretty much all my friends and my brother know that I'm pan/bi and everyone's been totally fine with it. No big deal. Feels awesome.).

 

Probably around the time I was 13 was when I noticed something was up. (though I think I had known subconsciously before then.) I was looking at girls WAY more than guys. And I even had a few crushes on some of my female friends. I only started really accepting and acknowledging that I'm gay about last year.

 

Throughout the whole of my primary school years I was in "love" with this girl, i'm pretty sure I confused the feelings of her being my best friend with love

Then in my first year in secondary school, I went out with this girl who had been off ill for several months. Then when she came back I avoided her like the plague, that's when the pieces of the puzzle slotted together for me. Guess i've known since I was 13 :/

 

I always knew I liked other buys, but I didn't really know about the word "gay" until a couple of years before I became a teenager.

 

So I started to really realize sexual attraction was in seventh grade. And mine was with men. I didn't find girls attractive. But I didn't come out until November of tenth grade.

 

I'm bi, and I never really noticed anything in my childhood. But to me, 'homosexuals' never existed in my mind until I turned 13. Until I turned about 10 or 11, I never reasoned. It was there because it was there, full stop.

I was a late starter when it came to puberty, I only started masturbating when I turned 14. I fell for a girl just under 2 years ago. After a few months of liking her, I began exploring my 'second curiosity' into men. About 6 months later and a lot of looking at nude guys, gay porn, nude girls and lesbian porn, I realised that I was bisexual. It's about 11 months on from when I first realised, and 10 months on from when I first came out.

In hindsight, I may have come out a bit too early, it's only been until recently that I've completely come to terms with myself.

 

I'm not entirely sure.
I know I started questioning myself in middle school.

Mainly because I was friends with quite a number of bisexual girls.
I looked back in my mind to try and figure it out and I realized a few things about myself.

I used to watch Cold Case religiously, and three of my favorite episodes were Daniela (involving a girl named Daniela who was born Edwin), Best Friends (in which there is a Prohibition-Era lesbian couple), and Committed.
I preferred those episodes because I thought the characters were interesting. Especially Daniela, Billie (Best Friends), and Carmen Hayes (Committed).
But the main thing that made me realize it is that for years I've been a bit obsessed with the character of Carmen Hayes. After I watched the episode for the first time, I immediately looked up the actress.

Billie and Carmen influenced my tastes in women, that's for sure.


What made me realize that I was interested in both men and women, and everything in between and beyond, is one day I was watching a House marathon or something.
In one episode I was thinking that Thirteen was hot and in the next I was staring at Chase and House.

After I realized this, I developed a slight crush on one my friends. She still doesn't know that it ever existed.

 

Well, I started thinking about it in my early teens. I just ended up stuffing those thoughts down until they eventually destroyed my social life. Then sometime during last summer I started thinking about it, and the more memories I unlocked the quicker I realized how big of a lie I had been living for so long.

 

I guess I realized around 13, when I became aware that I was more interested in guys than girls. For the next several years, I fought myself over those feelings and tried to shut them down. Eventually I realized those feelings were a part of me that weren't going away, and I made peace with myself. I came out to my best friend when I was 19, but didn't make any more progress for nearly a year, until I very recently came out to my parents. I guess that kind of makes me a late bloomer. But hey, better late than never, right?

 

About 4 days ago, when I realised I could happily live with the guy I was chatting to on line Before I started chatting to him I had no interest in men at all.

 

thinking back i can think of times where i knew i liked a guy but really never reconized it as anything. the first time i remember liking a guy was 7th grade, but when i actually acknoledged it i was a highschool sophmore. for me being gay couldnt happen to me, the idea was just not possible for me until all i could think about was this super cute guy in my class, and then i had to start facing facts.

 

I've always known I was different, but I never thought I was gay until I was around 12. I accepted that I was gay when I was 14 (Last year) and I've started coming out to people

 

I started watching porn at 15 or so first it was lesbians then it quickly changed to gay stuff but I still assumed that I was straight, i didn’t think about it until about until 10-11 months ago (18 years old). But recent reflecting on my childhood it makes soooo much sense; I’ve only recently accepted it (Big Thanks to EC).

 

It was weird for me because in 1st grade I had a crush on two girls and I would draw pictures for them and stuff...but by middle school I realized I was gay and that I liked boys, probably around the age of 12.