I don't know if i want to change

Hey angel why be depressed about the labels that have been put on you, they are just labels its part of the wonderful, mysterious quirky you, i dont see or read those labels in you, i ve read a lot of your posts all i see is a beautiful, intelligent and sensitive person just waiting to burst into bloom like a flower. dont worry bout the labels we have all been labelled wear the labels with pride. Please dont hurt yourself any more, let yourself be you soak up the sun feel its warmth on your face. greg

 

Telling your mom was a good idea. When someone you know personally knows about one of your burdens, it cuts the burden in half. And if you decide to tell another person, you'll cut it in half again.

 

I'm glad you have someone to confide in too!

 

I'm so pleased you have been able to talk to your mum about this. What's great is that she understands what you are going through from her own experiences.

(*hug*)

 

stay strong!

 

Angel... I wish I knew what to tell you to make you feel better. I don't know you well enough to do that.

All I can say is that I've come a LONG way in the past year with my problems, and my therapist deserves A LOT of the credit. (As does my wife.) But fundamentally nothing would have worked for me unless I wanted to get better. I had to be completely honest and open with my therapist - I didn't hold anything back. I told him everything that I had done, everything that I was feeling, everything that I thought about doing. Just saying all these things out loud helped. But sharing them with someone that can stand back and take an objective view of the situation was extremely valuable for me.

I wish you could find someone like that. And stick with it! In time, things will get better. You're very young, and whether you believe it now or not, you have lots of stuff to look forward to. Honest!

It sounds to me that you need to find yourself some help beyond this 'virtual' support group here. None of us are really qualified to give you advice - only encouragement. I hope you sense that from me! Because it's there! Keep trying! You're worth it!

 

don't hide them, Angel! Talk about them with someone. Talk about why you feel the way you do. Talk about getting back into counselling. Talk about what you need to start feeling better about yourself and your situation. Hiding it leaves it with you - to deal with on your own. That isn't working right now for you - you need help. And you're entitled to help! You're worth it!!! (&&&)

 

I agree with Jim. Don't hide them and don't lie. Talk to your mum again. (*hug*)

 

Hi Angel! I know life is horrible for you right now but don't focus on all the crap that goes on. It's sad to hear about the guinea pig and the robbery but it's life, just try and not think about it. As for the shoot out, it's devastating but you have to hope that everythings fine, and if it isnt' then at least you have your mum and everyone on this board to talk to and help you through it.

I've tried to kill myself in the past and I know how inescapable it feels, and you will have days when you feel awful and want to do it again, but you need to try and stop those thoughts. Keep busy, go jogging, go to the gym, if you like to feel pain then punch a punching bag. Talk to people, if you're girlfriends fine, find her, tell her how you feel, you need someone there to keep you occupied. You do want to get better, you have that strength in you to beat this, don't give up, no matter how hard it is (*hug*)