Did you 'know' you were gay as a child?

nop bt I knew I was kinda different coz I once wished my teats would grow as big as my aunties' real weird I know..I always made out with chics n it felt ok.

 

I had a "girlfriend" at age 10, and we kissed a lot. Does that count?

 

Many female teachers... since I began to have them as teacher in 3rd grade

 

I never knew that I was gay until I was around 13-14. And when I was young I was really effeminate so people liked to call me homo and stuffs just to offend me, but even with all the insults, I still truly believed that I wasn't gay, and that there's no way I can be gay in this life. Also, when I was very young (7-12 years old) I have never found girls attractive and I never understood why all of my male friends (or male adults) went crazy when they saw hot girls. Later, when I'm around 12 years old, I had a huge crush on Ben Affleck and even then I still thought that I was straight. The epiphany hit me when I was around 13 (or maybe 14) and it took me literally one second for me to realize "I'm gay!" I didn't deny it and go, 'wait this can't be true, maybe I'm not gay. Maybe this is normal etc..." I was like "CR*P I'm freaking gay!" and instantly got depressed.

 

I cant remember there ever being a time that I had a crush on a girl in junior school I just knocked around with lads used to play wwe wrestling and for some reason I got exited when certain lads got on top of me for the pin didn't have a clue why back then .

 

I probably had a fair amount of crushes on boys, but the one thing that I do remember is this note I wrote to Santa:

Dear Santa, I would like a pink cell phone, a puppy, and to meet Josh Peck from The Amanda Show. I also want a REAL star. Not a fake one.

No boy wants a pink cell phone. =3

 

Uh... I never thought about it, like. "Wow, I have a crush on this celebrity, who happens to be a girl, but I don't have crushes on the boys, and my friends do". I remember one time in 4th grade, or 5th, don't remember... and I went to a friend's house, and she was like... she had big boobs by the time and she changed clothes in front of me and I was like "wow" hahaha YEAH. I never had big boobs, I have really small boobs, but I loved them hahaha I was staring, but... we were kids and she didn't even notice. But yeah, we were like 10/11. But I never thought about being gay, I first started contemplating about that when I was 14.

 

i surpressed it till my late 20s. I was n ever into boys particularly and the only man I ever loved was my husband. It was more of an admiration thing though, not a sexual or physical thing. Sex with men has always been wrong with me. Fro years I've thought that there was something wrong with me. Now I know the answer at least. I really don't know how I've managed to fend it off for all these years and not have a clue for most of them. I was bought up in a working class family from the Black Country. The expectation is that girls will leave school at 16; work in an office; meet and marry a man who can look after them, he will probably do a manual job; have a couple of kids; buy a suburban semi; go on holiday to Spain once a year' watch Corry of an evening and go up the club of a saturday for the disco: That's the life I was brought up to aspire to. Being talented, creative or different doesn't even come into the equation. The fact that I might be gay wasn't something I seriously even considered. I used to get the odd thought or feeling for someone and I've had dreams about women pretty much all my life. I just pushed them away as dirty. These things catch up with you in the end though. I'm glad it has though, at least there's not something wrong with me and I still have time to build a life for myself where I can be honest. HOpefully my chance of meeting the right woman hasn't passed me by.

 

I've known since I was 12 and I didn't really know it at all. I just knew that I was best friends with girls, not a sexual thing though. After I knew, I started to have real crushes on guys.

 

I was brainwashed to believe that being gay was evil, but now that I think about it yes. In the 6th grade I had a best friend that would purr on me like a cat, lay in my lap and nudge me in the neck. She was one of those people who thought they were an animal. I had an idea about my sexuality then. I never been touched by another girl like that. Some of the boys started to call me the f word, so I started to say yuck and not let her do it anymore even though I secretly enjoyed it and was attracted to her.

 

Only realised when I was 12 before then I didn't really think about it.

 

Well, I still don't know if I'd call myself gay... but when I was a kid looking at lesbian porn and enjoying it, or "playing doctor" and enjoying it, it didn't register to me what it meant to be a girl and like girls. If that makes sense?

 

Ive known since I was about 13 but Ive just now have begun to come out and finally except it. I even used to have a girlfriend but she broke up with me because I think she knew that it was just a cover up for who I really was.

 

No. I think I was well into my 20s before I ever even considered the possibility.

Although there were clues earlier. The earliest I can say for sure was when I was in junior high PE at about age 13. I had a great deal of interest in the other boys, but I mentally wrote it off various ways.

I have a sense there were clues in late elementary school, but I can't remember well enough to say for sure.

 

I had my first crush on a guy in the 4th grade...but at the time I thought I was straight. Because I was physically a female and had no idea what was going on in my head at the time, even though I knew I felt like a boy.

During high school I would always joke with my friends saying that if I were a guy I'd be gay; still kind of confused of what the feelings were in my head, at the time.
...And then last year I finally figured out that I was a gay guy. :lol:

 

I knew basically since I was 6 or 7. Funny. Back then I thought that every boy thought like that. Didn't really `know` that I was gay untill about 12, if that makes sense...
I remember on a school trip in summer time, when we went on a hike and got soaked, then a few guys took their shirts off and I thought it was cute.

 

I had no idea as a kid. When I was about 14 I had an odd attraction to girls but didnt really think of it like I was gay. When I was about 18 I realized that I actually liked girls. But I thought I was bi until I actually dated a guy. Then I realized no, I only like girls. I think deep deep down I've always known though..

 

I don't think I consciously identified myself as gay until I was a freshman in high school. However, retrospectively I recall finding guys kinda cute in elementary school (at the time I thought maybe I just wasn't at the right age yet to find girls attractive...lol), and in middle school I found some guys irresistible (yet I still didn't identify as gay until quite a while...I didn't draw the connection between "finding guys attractive" and "gay").

 

No, I've only come to terms to the fact that I was gay/bi just last year. I only thought it was a possibility when I was in high school. As a kid I didn't 'know' I was gay/bi, I might be able to look back and see I might have show signs but I think that would be overthinking about my childhood. Plus looking back on past memories, your older self can always think certain things are signs, etc.

Anyways I don't think your fake because you didn't know your sexuality at a young age. Everyone is different in how they find out.

 

Not per say.

I felt different as a child, but I suppose most children feel different. And then during my early teenage years, I was attracted to women. Then that attraction went entirely, thought I was asexual for a year and a half and then discovered I was bisexual.