Michelle Rodriguez finally stopped trying to tell people she was straight. Bout time sexy lady...you werent fooling anyone
I'm wondering which shoes cut my foot again and also how much I'm going to regret wearing oxfords tomorrow.
I think the defining feature of my sexuality is that it is perverse, in the, as Merriam-Webster puts it, "obstinate in opposing what is reasonable or accepted" way. No matter what conclusion it is that I reach about it, it will always do something to contradict it. I admit that I'm not turned on by woman? I find a woman who turns me on. I acknowledge my attraction to men? The attraction evaporates. I acknowledge that the attraction has disappeared? It comes back. And so on.
I had quite a good evening, in that I think I've upgraded a friend to being a good friend. We hadn't seen each other over the summer and she actually stood up to give me a hug when she saw me, and during the course of our conversation I even felt comfortable enough to crack a joke. I love it when I'm able to let my guard down. Also, I think she's a lesbian but I don't think she knows I'm gay, but I feel like she's the type of girl who would be delighted when she finds out. I like having friends, even if they're people whom I don't get to see as often as I'd like!
Why I want to go back to school for one thing and, ideally, have a career in a completely different area.... -____-
Went to the student center this morning during lunch, was there for a period and a half. The counselor seems pretty nice, he wasn't obnoxiously prying and just listened to my rants, was pretty sympathetic. I feel a little better about my feelings, but I know this is gonna be a process. Gonna try for the art club tomorrow, said counselor said there's apparently a decent majority of LGBT students that happen to show up, which I found kind of interesting.
I can do it!!! ...aaaa I'm such a coward... :bang: send it send it!! ---------- Post added 1st Oct 2013 at 08:23 PM ---------- Same here!! :icon_sad: Nice word...
It's going on two weeks since my best friend has talked to me... I can't watch my anime in peace without worrying. I don't know why he's avoiding my messages. Guess I really can't keep people in my life after all. Welp, back to watching SnK.
Hey Nick, Don't know if it's true or not, but I'm told that if you put a frog in a pot of cold water and then bring it to a boil, the frog won't notice and will stay in the water until the end. Another analogy: I suffer from mild asthma, usually associated with a cold, but it's so mild and subtle that I fail to notice myself getting slightly weaker from a lower level of oxygen getting to my bloodstream. When I eventually do snap out of it, I realize it and reach for the rescue meds; almost always expressing surprise that I didn't notice earlier. What do you need to rescue you from being so numb?
Today did not go at all as I planned. I had to spend 3 hours at financial aid because they messed up my paperwork.. The good thing today was that I chalked for trans* awareness at my college. I also got to hang out with some of my friends that I had not seen in forever.
I'm flipping out!! Things are supposed to be getting done and they're not getting done and I don't have time for this. If my time wasn't wasted yesterday I could skip studying tonight, but it was, so I can't. And how is tomorrow Wednesday? Like, what? Can I just get a minute? Can I please just get a minute? ;_;
Time to play Mass Effect while trying to figure out what is going on with my brain. I feel so out of whack and it's starting to drive me insane. I still can't believe tomorrow is already Wednesday.. Where are the days going? Whatever needs to get done, you can do it!
