I sometimes wish things were different but I am not I going to look back.. I am going to keep looking forward.
Someone close to me, just made my adrenaline skyrocket, scaring me quite a bit. But then again, i sort of got myself into the situation that caused this. It's like, watching a scary movie and a sudden jump scare scene, but amplified several times. I kind of feel a sadistic enjoyment of the rush i got. Situation was resolved, now everything is back to normal, and in long term, i think for the better. *thread* - Saturday, finally decided what to do... Going to push the car to ~200 again, if the roads have dried out from the rain, then gonna get back home, go out with this one guy i hate for my routine "cardio" walk around the city, and finish off by coming home and... checking in on, erhm... stuff.
Oh yeah, this is dysphoria. I guess that's cleared up then. It's more common at night for some reason, but not unknown during the day.
Dear amazing person, Could you please stay out of my head? You're messing me up. Sincerely, That pathetic one with feelings for you.
I hate when that happens, but maybe I can top that. I was in Pasadena for a research internship in my senior semester of college (actually, I took an extra semester from when I should have graduated just so I could remain eligible). In the midst of that, I wrote my senior thesis in a mad rush to turn it in the prescribed deadline, and later I had to fly back to my home university just to be part of a poster presentation. It wasn't that bad until I overheard another student asking the professor in charge of the thesis class if he could turn in his thesis later (mind you, the deadline was a month or so before the presentations). My blood really boiled when I heard it was approved.
Doubt Confidence Doubt Confidence It's fucking destroying me. ---------- Post added 7th Nov 2014 at 11:34 PM ---------- I should stop complaining
I think I've just seen my first short-haired trans woman online. It's pretty rare for women in general to have hair on the shorter side, and it seems more so with trans women, but, they exist. Awesome. Not sure what the "formal" name of this style is, but it seems to be somewhat popular these days. http://2.bp.blogspot.com/-Yo1ziqNI1uo/ULDiLsgiMdI/AAAAAAAAAXY/b-7yBQPLO2U/s1600/2012-Short-Hairstyles-for-Women-6.jpg
Why does she keep asking me if I'm okay when she knows I'm not? And whenever I tell her, she simply shrugs it off. I don't see the point.
I think opening up with people about my mental issues, or what I perceive to be issues, helps with coming to terms with them. If everyone is open and honest, it can make everyone feel better.