What are you thinking?

I can't believe that it is February already. It seems like January went really quickly because I've been so busy.

 

I am so scared to come out to my parents. My dad’s heart is abnormal according to the doctors, and I couldn’t live with myself if I gave him a heart attack.

 

I come back home this weekend for Carnival: I love it, specially if I celebrate it with my siblings. My mum want me to stay there longer, and one part of me wants to do so, and maybe go out with some old friends... but should I? I'm working really hard lately on therapy to build my own space and self-care of myself where I live now, since a few years ago. I don't want to feel "attached" to my home anymore.

 

That's up to you, friend.

No one can take that decision, but you.

Happy carnival!! But doesn't it start next weekend in Spain?

 

Oh, you said next weekend, sorry. Haha.

 

I need a clone. Or at least more hours in the day. Between my usual "at home" duties with the house, the cat and more, my graphics work and everything else, I took a day - 12 hours - and fast drafted the second half of a story. Over 15 thousand words in a day, my record so far. It was pretty clean, for a fast draft, according to my editor. It's now at my publisher's, I'm waiting to hear back from the head editor, and I have the cover already. I am currently writing its sequel... And designing a cover for a friend, while doing graphics for my own book promos.

On another note, the province got whomped with a huge snowstorm this past weekend. We got lucky, only 30 cm - a foot - came down here. Parts of the northern end of the province got over 160 cm - five feet - of the white stuff. Yikes.

 

That I'm not going to let strangers shame me out of being who I am. I can't do anything about the anxiety some of them cause me but I can choose what I do and I won't be deterred.

 

I think that's a good attitude to have. Best of luck to you.

 

I’m cursing apple for discontinuing the iPod. Mine broke a few months ago and my iPad isn’t as convenient. Apple didn’t think of the people who don’t have iPhones or people who don’t want to spend an obscene amount of money on an iPhone. I’m still paying for Apple Music I’m not sure if it’s worth it anymore.

 

Predatory people give me anxiety attacks. Thank heavens that one is in another country and easily blocked on social media.

 

Do you think he'll cause problems?.

 

Welp. Guess I'm officially committed to this solo trip. Cue anxiety

 

Hoping the computer I have my eye on doesn't sell out before tomorrow morning and wondering if I should order it on Amazon or Best Buy's website. Best Buy has it cheaper, so it seems obvious, right? Well, it's not because unlike Amazon, Best Buy is not showing whether they're almost out of stock period, only that, if pickup is selected, there's only so many left at the store nearest me. That's a problem, but as I intend to have it shipped to me, I have more faith in being able to get it from them, but where will it ship from? The store nearest me or a warehouse close enough by to get it to me on the day I want it? Contrast Amazon, who is being upfront about not having many left period and cannot guarantee getting it to me this week anymore despite it only being Tuesday as I type this, but at least I know if I get it from them, it will be shipped to me from whichever warehouse is close enough by to get it to me by the soonest date possible.