What are you thinking?

your level is already too static, i'd rather surpass you~

 

I move so feminine naturally. I need to learn how to dance masculine. I wanna get up on that dance floor on my nephew's wedding. I'm gonna show those boys what's up. LOL

 

But.. But..

Guys dancing feminine is so sexy

 

Hey, if I wasn't at a gypsy party, dancing with all 'straight' men. I wouldn't care. I just don't wanna out myself by shaking my butt at a party. (!)

 

I feel like I'm at crossroads in my relationship, I don't know what I should do...

 

but, you're 18, and you have a nephew, who's getting married?

 

I need to wake up in an hour and 15 minutes... GO TO SLEEP BRAIN!!!!

 

My sister is 44....and my brother is 43. So they have 8 children ranging from 5-25 years old. 8 in all.

Then I have two other siblings with 4 children ranging from 7-17

My nephew is 19. And he should be getting married by the end of this year or early next year.

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In other news, I'm at the hospital e-mergency room right now. My father woke up with water in his lungs. I have a lot of mixed feelings. I can't help but feel guilty for the things I say on here. He is fine now. It just shocked me, even though he has these episodes every once in a while.

 

I have no idea how I've managed to mess up my sleep schedule again. I was doing so well, getting up at around 7-10 am and now I can't sleep a wink until 7 or 8. A part of me wants to just wing it and stay awake for the rest of the day but I know that it won't be worth it.

 

My sister is so malicious. she literally tried to gives me sugary foods to make me gain weight. I won't fall for that shit though. Complaining to my dad because she knows he would try to make me drink the coca cola.

I don't know why though.

 

Went on a spontaneous date last night, so for the first time I didn't 'celebrate' Valentine's day alone. And it was a lot of fun

 

How can I make my EC crush happy? And how can I make him like me too. I really hope he likes me too. We have alot in common, he is also very good to me and he soo handsome. Damn, I was just recovering from a bad relationship and now this. Why do I easily and hastily like someone.

 

Black people really you listen to that shit without question. Rascist bullshit disguise as a reglious teachings and you still listen to it without question. I'm pissed off right now.

 

Thanks, I failed though. Back to square one again of trying to give up. How have you lasted 4/5 months?

 

'You never want to do anything.'

She doesn't understand. It's not that I don't want to. I just don't feel worthy of any of it.

 

Ddos?

 

Keeping my fingers crossed right now, since my rib pain is going down. I just have a hard time coughing and clearing my throat. Bluh.

 

I prefer how I use to be, when I had no fear or worries talking to anyone online. Now I have become so shy and hide myself in the background.

What really changed with me?

 

Just did my taxes. Might make a little back.

 

All these ideas, but nobody here to spoil them with.

On a more positive note, the forecast is calling for a lot of snow, more than we usually get around here, and that means I'll be able to "rent" out my extra heaters, as well as sell from my Ramen stockpile... if it does indeed snow.