What Are You Thinking?

i really have to pee....but i'm anxious about my aunt responding to my email i sent last night about being trans. i wish she'd just respond already *fret*

 

My confidence is skyrocketing... upside down.

 

my cousin's music is always so heartfelt and full of emotion...i love listening to it when i'm having trouble.

 

I had to assure her that I was gay. She said she was sad when she heard that. She said it was my own personal problem. She said she wouldn't mention it again. She said she we weren't close friends anyway. I considered her to be my second best friend. And I'm crying.

 

Aggravating day at work today. I'm not allowed to inject my own opinions and thoughts, but goddamn was I ever tempted to on two such calls today. Let's just say I loathe jingoism with all my might.

 

debating just calling my parents and just blurting out that i'm trans....but i really don't know how that would go over XD they're on vacay with my grandparents lol

 

I really don't know what I'll do if things go badly on thursday.

 

Wasa crackers and pepperjack cheese make for a surprisingly delicious meal...

 

I hate how I am the sole cause of my downfall again and again. :tears:

 

i just got off the phone with my aunt, we had a really good talk about everything and she was really actually excited, and she wants to see if once i start transitioning if it helps my depression at all. she also said to tell my mom that i already talked to her when i come out to my fam, cause my mom deals with things by talking, and she said she was willing to be my mom's mini-therapist ha.

now i'm wicked anxious for another reason....i just emailed mom X.X i feel like a thousand tons of adrenaline are running through my body (which there probably is lol).

 

1) I finished my internship two days ago, and I really miss my coworkers.
2) I keep having dreams that I have a girlfriend and it's killing me that it's not reality

 

What the ragnarok is up with liams voice >.> Oasis couldnt just kiss and make up for the olympics.

 

What a lovely flowchart a friend sent me ~

 

Nicoletta Braschi, why are you so beautiful? will you marry me? I will learn italian soley for the purpose of romancing you... ti amo, mia cara :icon_redf

 

I think someone's a fan of George Takei LOL

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I feel horrible, and it's entirely my own fault. Sometimes I really need to get out of my head.

 

^W^ All ways look on the bright side of life *whistle, whistle, whistle* I'm liking the olympic closing ceremony.

 

I know it's terrible to do this, but as a student, I eat one meal a day to save money. Why does university have to be such an expensive cost?!

 

I think I should disappear for a while...