Small Victories

I had my first T blocker last week!

Beth

 

Hope it goes well !

 

Someone thought I was a cis guy but bisexual even though im pre t (we know each other from lgbt events and don't talk outside of that, so i must've been queer in some way). But brahhh!!! Hahahahaaa

 

It's going to sound very silly but..
My dad showed me how to open an ampule of some medicine earlier today and since that moment all I can think of is me opening my first ampule of testosterone in a few weeks/months and injecting it. It feels so vivid. I'm so excited holy hell

 

I was correctly gendered by a toddler today!

Late afternoon, sitting on a bench by a cycle track in Bristol, a mother pushing her daughter in a pushchair: "What's that lady doing sitting there," she asks her parent. "She's probably catching her breath because it's so hot," her mum replies. (We're having an Indian heatwave in the UK at present..)

I looked over and smiled.

But inwardly I glowed!

Beth x

 

FACIAL HAIR FACIAL HAIR HOLY SHITTTT (it's like 3 hairs that randomly popped up on my cheek (????????* how????) and suddenly i understand all the teenage boys who refused to shave even though they looked absolutely horrendous)

*I used castor oil for a very short time on my face and then stopped. I see no other explanation considering I've only ever had blonde peach fuzz on my jaw/cheeks, but I'll restart using it and hopefully more facial hair will grow (even though it's really frail).

It's that or i manifested it alongside the very slightly elevated t levels in my body...in which case, cmon universe, how about a lil shadow of an Adam's apple next?

This moment obliterated any doubts i had about t being the right path for me. I can't wait to start : what an awesome way to end an otherwise meh day

 

I'm meeting with my endocrinologist next week to give him all the test results)))) T is getting closerrrrrr

 

Had my T dose upped!!!!! Thought it wouldn't be for another two weeks, I'm so happy

 

I started doing voice training exercises from resources I found. It felt great to hear even a botched yet higher tone of voice for a split second.

 

I started painting my nails again. My brother video called me saw them and called me gay but honestly it didn't hurt as much as it once did, I just thought boy do you have a surprise coming.

 

I had a wonderful time experience today, i caught my reflection in a window. At the time I was wearing a knee length dress, in the reflection I saw a woman turning, her dress swaying. I then realised it was me, I was so thrilled.

 

I took my tshirt off and caught a glimpse of myself in the mirror. I don't know if my chest has shrunk or if my pecs have grown or maybe even both, but I could look at myself and see a chest somewhat resembling that of a male's. It's still there, but it's not as noticeable from certain angles anymore. It's wonderful looking at myself and feeling (and knowing) I'm on the right path

I also noticed some thin hairs coming in from my chin i love this

 

My voice has started dropping, i think talking in my "normal" high voice just sounds like a guy mocking a girl, now. It's course and far from manly, but I can only comfortably speak from my chest, anything higher hurts my throat. I'm in for a ride, hahaha!!