Small Victories

well, ive been processing this since the weekend, but on sunday I went to a social function for LGBT people. all age groups seemed to be present, even if I was the oldest there haha. and I was chatting to a lady who is related to my sister in law that I am trans..... im sure she will be discrete as she has a trans son. I felt scared as heck after I said it, but there it is...

im counting that as a victory because this person knows people from my earlier life and she is one more that I've told.

 

I've been hitting the gym lately and my fast metabolism is starting to show itself again. Three kilos in three weeks and my stamina is increasing at a rapid pace. I know it's technically not good that my heart rate is so high due to my meds, but it does help with exercise!

 

I came out to a forum Ifrequent that's mostly about Star Wars and lightsabers(the custom ones you see costumers with). So far lots of support.

 

Fuck, I really want one of those.


Another sort of victory, ever since I started reading romance mangas again, I've felt all giddy and a lot more feminine all the time. Reading romance manga is something I always liked, but back when I was in hardcore denial, I stopped doing it as soon as I realized how much I enjoyed it. I remembered a few days ago how much I liked it and have done nothing but reading since.

 

I passed again! Not sure why...

 

https://www.ultrasabers.com/

 

And then I didn't, lol...

 

Yeah, I've been there and drooled. They're too expensive. I'd get a pink one though, cuz' fuck society.

 

You should join the forum at least. It's a good community.

 

Nah, I'm joking. I'm too much of a sith to not pick red.

 

I REALLY want a pink one though....gah money!

 

yes please me too

 

Best saber ever, though? this swordstaff lightsaber.

 

I got my first HRT appointment scheduled for March. SO EXCITED!

 

Finally got a new binder in medium in the mail. It is so much more comfortable than all the ones I have in small and doesn't make my armpit fat bulge lol. Only problem is now I have a bunch in small and I only want to wear the medium one.

 

That is a nice one! My current is an orange blade on a dark hilt that I have some light hockey tape on. Perfect ambiguous "Is she good, or is she evil?" color scheme.

YAY!!!!! I'm just sorry you don't get to be a February Girl, but I'm still stoked for you.

 

Congrats! Maybe you could give some of those to someone who might need them and just get more mediums?

 

I've found lately that rather than using my writing as a chance to "escape" my issues with gender identity, it's actually a very useful outlet for me to express them. I've gotten more confident about writing about sexual subjects in my stories and poetry, and sharing them with my professors and peers. It's helps me to self-analyze and vent those emotions.