OMG! I just realized...

..which is why I love them <3

 

#SlothforPresident

 

That was Bush.. Just sayin

 

This thread is getting off topic you guys!!

I went to a counselor when I was around 15-16, since my mom found gay porn on my computer, and took me there to talk to a guy. He asked me if I could pinpoint anything that would trigger such stuff. And then it just came to "OH MY GOSH! NOW IT ALL MAKES SENSE!!" All the events in my life (which were weird to most) had suddenly made sense now.

Has this happened to anyone? Where they realise everything that's gone on in their childhood was a foreshadow/a small hint as to what their sexuality was?

 

Basically what I had said earlier in reference to the other guy who had an awkward encounter with his brother. It got off topic because once you get it out into the open there really isn't much to be said lol.

 

When I was 9....? In Mexico while I played my DS he would bite/lick my ears I didn't think anything of it.

 

When I was younger I had friends and we were into WWE wrestling and being boys we used to play fight pretend to be a wrestler one guy was always EDGE & i always got excited when i fought him like a tingling in the groins . its weird i know .

 

Fourth grade, had a huge crush on my best friend (a few years later, we actually dated). Constantly fantasized about kissing them (which I had internalized was "wrong", since I was "supposed to be a girl" and they as well). For some reason, I fondly remember they smelled of celery... Fought like cats, of course, even "broke up" as friends a couple of times.

And somehow I never made anything of this until years later when I began calling myself a lesbian...

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Well... Especially in terms of my gender, yes.

I'm realizing now that my desire to be a guy runs much deeper than it has now. Remember fondly, when I was five, getting a short, "boy's" haircut and being delighted because I looked like a boy. Having mostly female friends but considered male peers to be rivals and had the most fun roughing around with them.

Male mannerisms came most natural to me and my mother fought for years to get me to be more feminine. Played male characters when I could help it, idolized Mulan because the movie resonated with me. Blared Metallica and Megadeth like it was my fucking theme song, dreamed of wearing boy's clothing and ties.

My parents spent a long time trying for a boy. Always used to talk about how much they wanted a son. I'd always think to myself, "You know, I'd gladly volunteer..." Kept a running list through my head of names I'd call myself if I were to magically transform into a boy. Loved shows and books where characters changed gender. When I wrote stories, my protagonists were almost always queer men because they felt more natural for me to write.

....life of me, in a nutshell.

 

When I was young (probably around 1st or 2nd grade), the girls in my class would play this stupid game where they would chase the boys and try to kiss them. I joined in, but I chased my best (girl) friend instead of the boys. She got freaked out that I was trying to kiss her because apparently her parents had just told her what gay meant the night before, and she told me what gay people were and made me feel pretty bad about myself. I stopped joining into that game after that, because I was afraid everyone would think I was gross.

 

I was in love with my friend, who I will call Q for now, until 5th grade (so Kindergarden-5th)
He was 1 year ahead of me in school, despite being the same age, and I would go to his house all of the time. Even when everyone in my neighborhood would get fed up with him, I would always go over there and visit.. I was terrible @ expressing my feelings, so sometimes I would just sit by him or hug him or just be close to him... On really stalker-y days, I would ride my bike back and forth just waiting for him to notice, or to get home from basketball or whatever he did.. He had nice arms, and i remember seeing him without a shirt at his pool a few times :3 He was my first boy crush. I didn't have another until 7th grade and now im in between people lol

Also @ Count.. That is just downright depressing... I would love to go back in time, and give you a hug at that time! Not to be creepy, but you sound like you would've needed one!

 

I don't even remember having any gay experiences in primary school, but I had girlfriends back then. "Why wouldn't I have noticed that I was gay if I was born that way" is what I ask my self now, but it's probably because of following trends, and trying to impress friends and at that time I didn't even know what being gay was. I don't recall finding males attractive (or females for that matter). But it was when I learned more about sexualities other than heterosexuality. I began to explore it and I guess it just felt right. I never was disgusted at the sight of 2 guys kissing or holding hands on TV, like my parents were. Then I guess I started watching gay porn, and it become clear from them.

So, my first gay experience other than porn, was when I get to secondary school and came out to friends, as I'd had crushes on a couple of teachers. Strong crushes. XD

 

(*hug*) Thanks.

 

Oh, I remember it as the most romantic thing ever! I was 13 (the erliest I can remember) and I was going to a friends cabin for a week, she brought three other friends, one of them's name was Mathilda. I kind of had a crush on her from erlier but at this trip we went to the beach at night, swimmed and listened to music. The others thought it was getting cold so they went back to the cabin, but me and Mathilda stayed and watched the sunset. We laied down on the rock, very close together and we where coming closer and closer togeher. I remeber my heart pumping so fast when I felt her breath on my forhead. she hold me, the cd started hacking right before we kissed and the moment broke. But I think it's one of the most beautiful and happy moments in my life.

 

^That's adorable!

 

Well I guess it kind of helped that people saw me as a female, so they'd probably think it was "normal". ^^; I've just always had this weird fear of people judging me for what I do or how I act, even with my family.

 

Aw that's so cute

 

I was 5 or 6 and I wrote a love letter to this really hot guy who is still in my class