Hi everyone, maybe I need just a few words of support.. There is just too much to tell, I'll try to be brief. Married with kids, fell in love with lady 3 years ago. Nothing has occurred between us except for on and off interactions. However, I've always felt she likes me and that has given me hope for these 3 years. Silly hope.. She does things for me and I do what I can for her, but it's always been push pull/ hot cold as they say.. Mostly cold and avoidance. The days that I feel her distant are painful and I am losing hope. Last week after getting short replies by text (hate texting) I had enough.. I've decided no more hope, I need to move on by shifting my thoughts and feelings away from her, by not seeing her.. And that's not all.. I have a husband who I care for, but don't have same feelings and attraction as i do for her, because of her.. I feel anxious around him lately because I don't feel belonging in this marriage. This is scary, and the only thing I would risk all this for, is to have a chance to get to know her better and spend more time with her. So complete no contact feels as if this chance is slipping away. i've tried to quit seeing her before, but no luck. This time around my confusion about her hurts too much. We can have a perfect interaction, then cold.. I am attracted to certain types of women, however, can not imagine wanting anyone else. Anyway, just feel like I've reached dead end..