Life sucks

I totally understand that. I’ve been there too. Mine was at a Turkish baths in Budapest on a stag weekend. Didn’t know where to look. But I did. Xx

 

I think most likely it has always been there but I think in different people these things manifest in different ways. I think for some people it probably popped its head up long ago but got shoved down so far, so fast that it decided not to try again for a long time. Sometimes the repressing is a conscious thing but often it is subconcious and explained away in different ways.
I also think sometimes these things are there but almost like a substance that is inactive without a catalyst. Some its been there in the background whilst we have been busy living our lives, but then someone or something comes along that provides the catalyst and all of a sudden its there in our face and all we can think about.