I came out to my brother!

So I'm on vacation with my boyfriend, my brother, and another mutual friend. We rented a little house in the woods. It's all been great, except for the obvious secret me and my bf were keeping from the other two. It's never really bothered me before that I had this secret, but it was really hard now that my brother was involved. We're really close, especially on vacations like this.. we're always honest with each other.. I really care about him. Lying to him like this -- right in front of his eyes -- it just felt awful, I couldn't do it anymore.

So today me and my bf (the rest thinks we're just best friends btw) spent the day at the pool and then just relaxing in the house, while my brother and other friend went on a citytrip to a nearby city. I decided this was my chance, as I wanted to do it by text without having to face him soon after. I know telling face to face is more personal, but I know I would've chicken out. Texting is more distant, which means it's a lot easier.

Still, I was so freaking nervous! I know my brother is accepting and everything, but I was scared to death he might react otherwise if it's me who's gay.. I texted him, literally (and *actually* literally :lol: ; my brother's 1st language is English, we do a lot of texting in English):
(obviously this is first me, then him, etc)

Ar, you got a moment?
Yea. what's up?
I have something serious I wanna tell you..
Ok. how serious?
You will always love me no matter what, right?
Of course. You're kinda scaring me now :s
Sorry.. I'm not sure how to tell you this..
Well I can't do it for ya haha. you didn't knock someone up, did you?
No lol ^^
Thank God. then what?
I so hope you're not gonna hate me for this.. , but.. I'm not straight (*I burst into tears when I wrote this *)
Come again?
I'm gay

*I didn't get anything back for ten minutes, so I nearly shit my pants and after those ten minutes decided to ask why he didn't respond*:

Did you get my last text??
Yea.
You're not gonna say anything about it?
I was deciding whether you were joking or not.
I'm not..
You're serious?
Yes.. have I ever lied to you..?
Oh. Wow. Are you sure?
Pretty much, yes.. Are you disappointed?
No of course not :s why would you say that. I'm really glad and proud that you told me. you'll always be my little brother (l)
Thanks man.. You have no idea how much that means..
Have you told mom and dad?
No..
Ok. No rush, huh.

I'm gonna stop writing out our texts cause we texted for like an hour. After the stuff I writed out the conversation went to me having a boyfriend, and I told him who it was. He was pretty supportive about that, too

I am happy that I told him, and I am sooooooo happy that he reacted so positively! I'd expected it, but still.. he's my brother, he's really important to me, so it would've killed me if he hadn't accepted me. I'm still afraid he'll see me differently because of this, but the important thing is I'm being honest. I was so done lying to him, I feel like I did the right thing by telling him Now I just pray to God things really won't change between us.

Hell yeah I did it! :eusa_danc

 

Thanks guys! It's great to have so many people supporting me

Yeah I know. I have thought about it, but I haven't decided yet. All these coming outs are emotionally exhausting.

Yes, I did! Sadly, though, apparently he's not so thrilled about that. But I'm still glad that he knows..