How to find a reason to live

We all get depressed at times, and being in the closet makes it worse. It helps to talk it out, and this is a good place to do it. In your first post, it sounded so dark like you really needed to get help from a professional. but the trend of your posts on this thread are increasingly positive. that's encouraging for all of us who share your pain.

 

If you like you could post on my wall.

 

You don't need to produce something incredibly complex in music, like a Bach fugue, to move people. An example of this would be Erik Satie.

If you are trying to be like somebody else, 'cause they seem better to you, you'll end up producing just copycat garbage.

To master something, really master it, takes 10 years. You can make the process more enjoyable by trying to broad your knowledge on music, explore, experiment and have fun.

It's normal to feel discouraged... All of us do when we look at our idols, and forget that once they were inexperienced too, they felt also frustrated.

Don't give up. There is a thread called voices of EC, and some folks have uploaded their music. You could give it a try, or at least use this chance to set a goal

 

I find breaking your life to smaller chunks helps. Think of your current life not in terms of its entirety, instead of tiny parts, like months, weeks, or even day. Instead of thinking about how painful it is to live for years and years on, just think about living for today, and today only. It feels much less overwhelmingly depressive, and it gives you a basic goal.

Another thing that might help is like what anonym said, having a pet. You never really feel how important you are in the life of others until you have to take care of a another life that relies on you. I had a hamster, and whenever I held that little ball of fur in my hands, feeling its tiny heart beating, feelings its warmths, feeling its whiskers as it sniff my fingers for food, I remember that I am holding a small life in my hand. That little life is kicking and living all it could, but if I die, it will die too.

Also, a way of expressing your frustration and depression, a way to let everything out is really great. For me it was writing. Many times I wrote things in tears, fearing they will be my last words as I descend further, but I then just focus on the act of writing, of just trying to put a word after another, linking them together until they become a lifeline that holds me in place. Probably only works for me because I am a huge word nerd and really think about what I write and soon that act of thinking and writing just slowly distract me from the thoughts I had before until I calm down and stop thinking about things.

Finally, just roam around the forum here. It feels less lonely when there are others like you, and the internet gives us an amazing way to connect. Making friends and building strong connections are one of the best thing you can do, because each person you have a great connection with can be an anchor you need when you feel like you are slipping away. We are all bounded by hardship, but we are also bonded by them.

Welcome to the family.

 

Hello Mary.

I hope you're doing better.

By the way, I'm from Spain too. I didn't realise the other time I wrote. :lol:

 

I hope you feel better soon Hun

 

If you need anything, you can count on me :icon_wink (*hug*)