Help...?

Have you done research into this disorder? It is classified as a mental illness that is treatable. It can be very serious. You say it's "borderline," I'm not sure what that means, but some of the side effects I read about are definitely alarming. I can see being enby as causing some confusion with DID. I would just make sure you aren't mistaking the two, as one is a serious medical/psychological condition while the other is not. If you do think you do have DID you may want to seek out a professional diagnosis.

So here is what has ME concerned in all of this. These situations take time, and it appears that you are grasping at answers. You should seek counsel with someone who can help you begin the process of unraveling all the details associated with what you are going through. The internet is really not the best place for this sort of thing because you will be tugged and pushed in every conceivable direction. If I spent 5 minutes on WebMD it turns into an hour, and eventually I usually end on some untreatable disease, or Ebola, or both.

 

I read a book called "Stop Walking On Eggshells," and one other that the title escapes me. It's a book about BPD as well as NPD, since the two can often work in tandem, or have the same toxic effect on relationships. I read these books at a time when I thought a close family member had one or both of these conditions. Based on what I read, if your therapist doesn't see it, then they are probably right, as the signs are pretty unmistakable once you know what to look for, which I assume your therapist does. But yeah, I totally hear you. I get picked on for my tendency towards Hypochondria and Psychosomatic symptoms. Which, as you can imagine, has me often feeling and believing I might have just about everything someone close to me has, or things I research online. I swear I've had covid a number of times even though I've never tested positive for it, haha.