Being bullied constantly

(*hug*) (*hug*) (*hug*) (*hug*) (*hug*)
Thank you all for the words of support. It feels so good knowing I'm not alone..

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beckyg: My parents aren't all exited for the prospect of sueing the school since we'd probably lose on the grounds of my retaliations when it's gotten too much.
I've been seeing a therapist, but the 'tactics' they gave me just didn't work. I too have read the stuff on standing up straight and being proud of who you are, and people just don't give a damn.

By the way I'm located in Melbourne and if even if the organization is on the other side of the city I'll find a way over. Thanks so much for the offer. *hugs*


Jim1454: I've been keeping some logs on my laptop about what's been happening at night before I go to bed. Really it's just a way to help me sleep but lately it hasn't been working.
In actual fact, I'm considering to pass them onto a counselor who could then call the school and give them the whole 'oh he's psychologically destroyed' talk.

I definantly have no intentions of going to the media with this - I don't want the attention. Nor do I want the school to get up my back even after I possibly leave.

I tried resilience. 8 months of straight ignoring or throwing back in their faces and it didn't work. I eventually cracked. :tears:

*hugs EC Daddy* I'll be sure to post updates.

Hehe and thanks. xD I found this avatar on a random image search for 'gay kiss'... I loved it. <3


winter89: I know I'm not ugly, but these assholes have really made everyone think I am. And my 'friends' going on about it doesn't do much good either.


surfrboykai: The problem is if I piss off the higher up people in the school they'll probably be really bitchy about it and give my family shit (aka calling my parents constantly trying to get them to call off the police). And I really am not up to that amount of stress..


Ilayis: Someone who was giving me so much shit once ended up nearly fainting from the amount of air I made him loose (aka I punched the crap out of the ****er). That went around the school and only kept the bullies at bay temporarily. >_<;


SpikySpice: I'm nervous about moving schools though.. 'Cause if it turns out to be packed with snobs (especially the homophobic kind) then I'd wanna stay right away.
And for me making friends isn't as easy as it is for other people. I'm somewhat shy, but mostly it's because I'm worried too much of what others think of me.


surfrboykai: Well from what I've heard from friends in the US, California and Florida are very gay-friendly states (well in the main cities anyway). Here in Australia, it's more of a thing of the government (as John Howard has actually stated to the entire country) not liking gays, not allowing civil unions or anything like that, and even saying that they have no plans on making Australia more gay-friendly. :dry: It's sorta like 'we hate you but you can live here anyway'


jayden: (*hug*) I actually stopped catching the bus because of copping heaps of shit on it. I seriously hope those assholes get what's coming to them.

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So next week school finishes, and I'm going to go on a spending spree the first half of the holidays having a complete makeover! :lol: I've actually been planing this since July and I'm so glad I'm going to have a chance to make it happen. I've got some fashion-conscious friends who could help me out too! ^-^
So far I have on my list to do:

• Hair restyle (going to go goldenish brown)
• New clothes (5 shirts, 2 jackets and 1 pair of pants)
• Facial/manicure
• Teeth whitening
• New glasses

I might post a pic of me soon so you can see how much I need the makeover lol. Thankfully money isn't an issue since I am going to be taking money out of my savings account, but transport will be. Probably I'll catch a train into the city. There's a station somewhat close to my local shopping precinct.

Hopefully instead of hitting me people will wanna hit ON me now! [/corny joke]

 

Hehe thanks! I'm looking up different clothes online so I know what styles to look for!
Essentially my makeover is to make people think 'holy crap this guy is hot!'

I might get some... 'Gay' clothes too just to drop hints at the guy I like (who I swear is gay in denial).

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SadConfusedBandGeek: Thanks *hugs* We're considering moving schools.. Dunno yet. And thankfully my area is generally fine (well we're moving to a real private area in a few months anyway).

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One thing I forgot to say before with schools, the reason we're so reluctant to move schools is because next year I move to my school's senior campus (the school is quite large so they have two campuses), and apparently everyone settles down nearly immediately when they start going there. Plus there's all the idiots who are dropping out so that's a major plus. So I'm probably going to try and survive until next year, see how things go (the teachers at the other campus are generally better too) and hopefully things will work out.

 

Thanks SpikeySpice! ^_^ I'm not going to get gay gay clothes.. Just something fashionable to make him think 'hey he knows fashion!'

 

Yeah I've heard all about it. It's quite horrible what goes on buses, after having caught a really horrible one for two years. I've been somewhat like Jayden in the past too - being smacked down, picking myself up again, but I've reached that point where I'm just emotionally dead.

Well hope things go well for you and Jayden!

 

*sigh*
Things took a turn for the worse the past few days.

I'm seriously being driven to the point of instability here. >_< I've been getting hounded quite a bit more than usual the past couple of days and it's really starting to annoy me.

I'm beginning to have all the gay crap start up again. On Monday this guy on the bus was "hitting" on me.. More just trying to piss me off. :dry: I'm so ****ing sick of morons who like to tease me in those ways.

And worst of all I'm sick again!!!!!!! My tonsils are the size of watermelons, I keep getting close to fainting and I can hardly think of school without being close to puking up.

One of my so called 'friends' is still telling people I'm gay, and I'm still getting heaps of homophobia from another guy..

:bang: ****ING CATHOLIC SCHOOL!!!!!!! :bang:


o(x_x)o Please excuse my outbursts of frustration. I'm at the end of my tether. It's just a matter of days before something in my brain snaps.

 

Trust me.. I can be a mega bitch. I'm going to wait until I have a large stockpile of evidence on my computer (photos, vids, recordings, etc) and then send it off in an ANONYMOUS email to the police. The school won't know what's hit them.

The only problem is not much is going to happen to my situation until then.. And as far as I know I might end up with a broken leg or arm.. As what has happened to a few people this year.

 

It's meant to be an 'open minded' school, but in actual fact most of the students are close minded (the school counselor actually told me for my safety to stay in the closet), and even staff like to throw around a few jokes, and about half the time they're targeting a student. :dry:

Needless to say, my school seriously has issues.

 

Here in Australia we don't have the middle school/high school stuff.. We just have a single high school from year 7-12. Then University. My school is so large they've split it up to two campuses.. Junior and senior.

Thankfully at the senior campus people have more room to be themselves, and here's heaps of gay guys there who don't get bullied anymore.

I'm just hoping the same happens to me..

 

*hugs* I've been avoiding MSN like the plague quite a bit lately..

And the problem is that the only good schools here are all religious. @_@ But there's one which isn't, however it's horribly overpriced and full of snobs.

Sadly the people who bully me aren't being punished.. :dry: The head of campus actually said that to me basically.
And they're not leaving the school any time soon..

>.< And I so am ugly.