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All the emotions today.

Discussion in 'LGBT Later in Life' started by NeonSocks, Jul 20, 2017.

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    @Moonsparkle I will definitely keep the story going, I mean we have an apartment to decorate now! : ) Also, thank you in advance for stocking almond milk! I love love love almond milk.
     
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    @NeonSocks I am just seeing your update, and I am so proud of you! What you said there, I completely agree with. I am trying so hard to not care about people's input. Everyone thinks we are just making a rash decision but they don't know the amount of pain it took to get here. I hope you find yourself and get to a strong place of knowing exactly what you need. It looks like our journeys will continue to parallel. Good job keeping true to yourself.
     
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    No one else really knows what you're going through. People always give their opinons without thinking about if They were in your shoes. I try to put myself in the other persons shoes before I assume or just blurt out my opinion. Everyone else always thinks they know best. But only you know What's best for you.
     
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    Thought I would just give a quick update since my mind is going numb looking at excel spreadsheets. EC mental breaks make excellent work distractions!

    I moved into my new apartment on Saturday. My relationship ended on Sunday. I cried on Monday. Today, I feel at peace. I know there are plenty of days ahead that are going to be dark, but there are also plenty of new opportunities as well. I feel at peace finally knowing that I am taking a chance on me. Allowing myself to live the life I have been too scared to live. Too frightened to acknowledge. Too unsure to accept.

    Saturday was the first step in my new chapter. I am almost completely unpacked- with the new dinosaur shower curtain proudly on display. : ) I am decorating according to my wishes and in the process building a new life. Starting over in a new town, with new self worth, and slowly ever so slowly learning to be ok with me.
     
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    Alright, so you're OK... but how are the books? And the socks! Just kidding you are more important than them. It's good to read your positive thoughts. The sky is your limit now!
     
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    Haha, the socks are safely unpacked and all neon pairs are accounted for. I just finished putting the bookcase together so tomorrow I get to deal with the stress of re-organizing that mess. :slight_smile:
     
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    All exciting things! I'm so happy for you that you are finding some peace in having your own space. I too am looking forward to making a place my own. A new town even? Wow fresh start indeed!
     
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    Thank you! Yeah I actually moved about an hour away from my house. I am still the same distance from work, but now I am closer to the one city in this state. I am not a necessary a fan of cities, but there are several LGBT Meet up groups that I know have better access too.

    Everything seems to be falling into place and I hope the same does for you.
     
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    Glad to hear you are settling in. I am moving in two weeks. Nothing new for me. I have moved lots of times. But I'll be much closer to the dojo. And karate always makes me happy. Have fun decorating! I'm always moving furniture around.
     
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    Thanks! And I'm so happy to hear that things are falling into place. That all sounds perfect! I'm a little envious of your ability to truly have a fresh beginning. My daughter is my world, but man are things oh so much more complicated going through this with a child.
     
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    I cannot imagine how much harder it is to go through all of this and have a child. I do not have kids (obviously- by my lack of ever mentioning children)- but I commend all of you that are mothers and fathers. It was hard enough dealing with everything when the only thing my partner and I shared was a house with a garden. I cannot imagine how much harder it would have been with another life involved.
     
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    This is terrribly difficult for all of us- regardless of kids or not. But thank you. It does make it so much harder to have another life I will be greatly affecting. And my husband will be on my life for a long time regardless because of her.
     
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