I had always thought I could be self-sufficient and be contented without ever needing anyone in my personal sphere. Lately, that thought has crumbled under the weight of loneliness. I have never had any intimate relationship with anyone. I have never kissed or touched or even held the hands of another person. I am a guy, a reasonably successful professional, a good-looking one (some may say). I am also miserable. I guess this misery has become more acute recently following my year-long crush on someone at workplace. I finally acted on my infatuation last month, walking up to him and trying to establish some sort of friendship. It didn't go far. Our interaction has been limited to hi-and-bye. I don't know his sexual orientation, but already I sense a lack of interest from him. I have spent so much time agonizing over him, and now I am simply trying to let the whole issue go. It is tough going so far. I could wake up in the middle of the night and think about him. If he so much as to ignore me when we walk past each other, my day would be slightly ruined. Unrequited feeling is painful. Online search for partners has proved futile. Gay bars and events are not my tea. I could only distract myself with work, exercise and my family (who of course has been wanting me to get a girlfriend). The world since college has been darker than I could handle by myself. I have stumbled upon some good philosophies on how to establish good intimate relationship with another person. I feel I am so ready to be someone's partner, lover, perhaps even co-parent. I just simply don't know where to go from here. Thank you for reading the exasperation to my current state of affairs. I would be happy to hear any thoughts you may have.