What Are You Thinking?

I won $10 from my flatmate for guessing the winner before the show started, go me

 

This weather is so damn good for once!

 

Ugh, so, for four days this week, I have to stay at my sister's college to wait for her to get out because she doesn't have that much money for gas, and this idiot school has blocked me from reblogging stuff on Tumblr. I am already pissed about having to stay in a waiting room/library hoping they don't find out that I'm not a student, but now you stop me from using TUMBLR? SERIOUSLY? Not to mention people keep staring at me, and it's making me nervous and causing my heart to beat extremely fast...God, I hate being in public.

---------- Post added 14th May 2012 at 10:16 AM ----------

Okay, maybe they didn't block Tumblr, but whenever I try to reblog something, it says the the site is blocked for pornography or something...then my post appears on my blog, wtf.

 

Lift off in 1 hour! So excited to be going on vacation!!!!!

 

Meeting my best friend in 1,5hour and I planned on coming out to him tonight. It will be the first time I tell someone I'm gay while sober.

I can't help but stress out over this even though I know I shouldn't. It's not a big deal. I know he'll be fine with it. But WHY does this make me feel so nervoussssss

 

Waiting for the mail. Homestuck Book 2 should be in sometime this week. This is going to be a long week...

 

Horrible headache. Ouuuuuuuuuuuuch!

 

Yet another exam tomorrow, oh the joy of leaving school.

 

Forecast for tomorrow:

A mixture of sunny intervals and showers throughout. Some showers will be heavy with hail and thunder. Heavier showers could also bring sleet or wet snow down to around 350m at times. Feeling cold in exposure with a cold northerly wind.

I love the weather being completely inappropriate for the time of year. Sometimes.

 

I really need to go to the gym today

 

Part of my GCSE Music exam this morning was identifying types of music. One question asked what style of dance the extract about to be played was. There was a short introduction to the piece, and then the first line of lyrics: "Line dancin' all night long..."

Easiest mark to get ever.

 

Just received news that my short story won first place for a Holocaust Memorial contest. I'm so happy!

 

Pfft, kids aren't tested the same anymore. When I were a lad...

 

theres hope out there and im on a mission to find it for us all who wants to join me ?

 

My clothes came from J.Crew today. It got a little dicey when I was ordering them because J.Crew runs kinda baggy and I wasn't sure what size to get, but they all fit like a glove. My favorite thing in the world now is my dress olive pair of slim fit flight pants. Top them off with a white button down and my RL slip-ons and it'll look so sexy, and I can wear my Wallabees with them during the fall/winter, and flip-flops in the summer when I'm not at work. It's a win/win/win.

But, the bad news is that my mentor just bailed on my love after she requested a whole week off of work. They were going to go to Florida for vacation but he's going to a friend's bachelor party in Atlanta now instead. Sooooooooo now my love and I have to find somewhere totally awesome to vacation on top of the other trips we've already planned, a place where muscly douchebag probation officers would die to go but aren't allowed because they act like duhfaces....

 

Apparently I'm the biggest coward on the face of this planet. I planned coming out to my best friend tonight and had some opportunities to do so, but... well I didn't. I'm still too scared to step out of my comfort zone. And it's not like it's my first time coming out, there are some people who I've told already. But I was drunk when I told them, it does make it easier. Bringing up the topic out of the blue feels so weird. But of course that's no excuse for not doing it... DEAR LORD WHY IS THIS SO HARD.

Saturday I'm seeing him again. I'll tell him then. OH YES I WILL. I HAVE TO or I can't look at myself in the mirror anymore.

End of rant.

 

I really need to find something to do. I finished all the stuff that I wanted to do this summer in 3 days..

 

Glad I finally made an agreement with myself on gender! :icon_bigg
Also scared to tell the rest of my friends and parents that I am pansexual.
Edit: Maybe I should tell them that I am Genderfluid... not sure though

 

That awkward moment when you dont realise your flatmate is home so act as if you are home alone...

 

i wish i had someone to talk to i'm bored haha D: