Didn't some religious person in Russia say something that if men shave their beard, that means they're gay or having a beard prevents men from becoming gay? Something stupid like that. I don't remember who it was, a priest or something.
Found out that Mark & Ethan and Will & RJ broke up and legit taking it hard lol. And V2 broke up years ago. It feels like all the Gay/bi YouTubers that helped me have broken up
I'm taking my dog to test to see if he can be a therapy dog this afternoon. I'm nervous! He is not nervous, as he has no idea any of this is going to happen because he is a dog and has no concept of things happening in the future
I actually got a good evaluation at work and I got a raise. I always expect the worst when I have an evaulation...
That's pretty awesome Brad! Work performance reviews are never fun. I get nervous when I know that my evaluation is approaching.
So... Guys... Check out my new out status! Wooohooo!!! So here's my coming out story Well I came out to my family last March when I was at my lowest. They were very very supportive. They accepted me. I sent this text to them I've always known since I was little but I dont want to admit it to myself and my family because I thought I would lose them. Been teased about it, bullied because of it, been humiliated because of it. Can you blame me for hiding? Despite being asked bazillion times before, I kept denying it. Even when my mom sincerely asked me, i still felt she was intimidating me so I, again, denied it. I've been suppressing this for literally all my life. I even prayed before to make me "normal" just so I can stop thinking that one day i would be disowned by my own beloved family. I experienced depression over it. I even tried killing myself... Twice. I both survived it, thankfully, but there's that pain every time I thought about my lonely future. I distanced myself from my family just to ready myself from this /inevitable/ lonely future I will have just because of this. I never thought that I can experience love with my family just because of this. This... This gift... My sexuality... My homosexuality. Until recently when I was at my lowest. I wrote my parents a letter saying that I wont go back home anymore and it will be the last thing they would hear from me. I told them that I was doing this because I know they wont accept and even wont forgive themselves for having a faggot son. I was left alone in my apartment. Depressed. Suicidal. But there's an unexpected plot twist in my story. I called my aunt and told her everything. I was expecting disgust and disappointment since I would be the first in the family (both from mom's and dad's side) to be gay. But instead she showered me with love and comfort. Honestly, without her i would have been gone. She gave me the courage to call my mom. So I called her. I was again showered by love and comfort, but this time by my mom. I will never forget what she told me. She said, "I prayed for you before i even conceived you, i will love you whatever or whoever you are". This intimidating religious woman that i call mom loves me despite my biblical abomination called homosexuality. I was so surprised that I was sobbing on the phone. That very day, I went home to them. Man, you have no idea how comforting and how heavenly my dad's warm embrace is. I never felt at home until then. I never felt the real meaning of love until then. All the pain I've been through just because of my sexuality dont mean anything anymore. I am probably the luckiest son in the world for having them as my parents. They raised me right and I so grateful for that. I was educated well because of their hard work. I hope that all parents would be like them (well except for my dad's jologs fashion hahahaha i love you still), open-minded and loving. And this is my birthday gift to myself, FREEDOM. This is my happiest birthday ever. Then maaaaaan!!! Many old friends, old school mates, old colleagues, and my relatives came to talk to me! They were showering me with love. I was crying all night because of extreme happiness. It was all worth it, the pain I've been through. I've got nothing to hide now. Im out to everyone!!!
We passed our evaluation! My dog got a frozen yogurt treat and I got an ice cream sundae to celebrate!
Husky mix. I got a DNA test done and he's a mix of husky, great pyrenees, German shepherd, pomeranian, and some other stuff. He is a sweetheart!
Test next week. I don't want to fucking study. To study for a course I had to take just to fill a graduation requirement...ughhh. Like I don't care about those stuff at all especially if they're outside of my major. Suck it up, myself. goddammit..
Gosh this is so relatable. General education graduation requirements are so pointless. How is being required to learn about Greek architecture in a humanities class going to help me with my science degree... they should just let people take whatever electives they want instead of forcing it to be in certain subjects.
I just wish I wasn't so alone and unhappy. I wish I could be normal and not have to worry about bigots judging me for just being myself.