I've kind of missed listening to Massive attack. Some tunes seem to stop time. Also, I might end up getting a fridge... Mayyyybe.
I had a friend of mine come out to me today. I'm so extremely proud of her. She really opened up and talked for a long time. The feelings she was describing were all so familiar. In addition, I'm kind of impressed by my intuition and analyzing skills, as I've suspected it. No, I'm not just saying that now. It has actually been on my mind. I don't know how I ended up having two other non-straight people in my class. Not only that, but in my group of friends. It seems like we're the only female-loving females in town. We're the rainbow squad.
I feel really guilty, even though I shouldn't. My teammate wanted to go to to a movie with me (like always) and I of course, said yes. On the phone, she told me that she didn't know the time of the movie until today, which she would call. Apparently she called and while my mother was over, she listened to the message and deleted it and I said "Doesn't matter, I'll wait for their call tomorrow" as it was 7 pm when my mother decided to tell me this. I went to bed and woke up with the door bell ringing and someone pounding on the door. It was my friend who asked if I was ready. I told her no, but I'd get ready right away. She told me not to worry about it and left. I looked at my phone, no messages. I looked at my cellphone, no texts. I'm a little upset that this even happened and I feel like if I had just made that call at 7, that I would've been up and made it to the movies with her. I also feel that it shouldn't be my fault because specific instructions where given and the rest was failed on it's own.
Call me picky but I find it very uncool on dating site when gay guys post a profile pic of them with a woman. I am sorry but it just turns me off.
Wow, that really seems like something that would make me feel like crap. I hate letting people down. I hope everything turns out okay between you and your friend.
Honestly, "what if my life and love isn't as good as those in the movies and stories. I really want a boy to love who will love me unconditionally and with whom I'd never argue, but would tease and have banter (cringe) with. Oh who am I kidding how ill I find someone like that?" "Damn it, I literally just changed my mood from depressed to relaxed, now I've had to change it back again" :icon_sad: This is all your fault, JK, not depressed but I am thinking that.
My mind can't think 1 thing at a time, so here is a list of my current thoughts, and thoughts I've had either really recently, or for awhile now. 1) *Swoon, emotional-orgasm, nosebleed* (Looking at pictures of attractive men, anime and real alike) 2) I want another necklace. (And candy) 3) I want to write a CLEAN FICTION story representing a lesbian couple, and a gay-male couple. The gay male couple will be symbolic of myself, and the possible mate I want in a relationship. I'm considering about posting it on EC if I do write this, but I'm not sure where exactly to post it... I also don't know how people would feel about it. But oh well ^_^ 4) Everything I posted in Relationships, Sexuality, and School 5) Pending motivation to do something today... Pending.... Pending... Pending...
Getting depressed by only listening to "Mad world" by Gary Jules for the entire night is certainly clever of me.
What is it with things exploding in the left side of my bra as I get ready to take them out? I need to get some real breast forms, I guess.
Scared I'm eating too much but I need to gain muscle and strenght I gotta keep my mind together and work hard.