What Are You Thinking?

Microsoft Office Excel is a wonderful piece of the office suite.

 

I'm trying to change my Tumblr URL to a Shingeki no Kyojin URL, but literally every SnK URL I think of (even ones combining it with another fandom) are TAKEN.

 

wish i could have a true best friend in real, that I can actually vent to about everything.

 

Thinking it over I've been sad
Thinking it over I'd be more than glad
To change my ways
For the asking

 

I hate cramps....I hate cramps...I hate- Oooh chocolate.

 

So I cried and cried all night. Still feel like crying now.

 

Ugh, I have so much stuff to do this week. Happy Birthday to me. :/

I'll try to celebrate a little this Saturday. Mostly this means watching PMMM again. I kinda wanted to find other people to watch it with, but no such luck so far.

 

It's OK to cry. It's a good thing to feel deeply, it teaches you so much.

Thinking of you, feel better and remember that nothing stays the same for very long.

 

I hate questionnaires. Particularly ones with leading questions that don't allow you to skip questions. For instance: "How strong has your desire to self harm been?" Meaning that if I answer, I imply I want to self harm, and that couldn't be further from the truth. There were some worse ones as well

I have to fill out a questionnaire to access gender treatment designed for closeted pre-transition trans people, when I've had surgery, and have been transitioned for years. Its really annoying.

 

Am i physically able to do round 3? Does it matter? Ill do it anyways

 

I go to a very beautiful university, but at night, it's scary as fuck.
Aaaand i'm sitting in the medical library alone. It's quarter past 7pm, and my first LGBT society meet is at 8pm, so nervous!

 

It has occurred to me recently that for someone with such a distaste for most of humanity, I really shouldn't be taking psychology.

 

Good lord I love sitting in the senior lounge during study hall. I get to see a crush of mine walk by me in preppy clothes everyday at the end of the day

 

It's been so long since the time I regularly daydreamed. My life used to be like a roller-coaster. Beautiful dreams and deep depression.
I guess I am afraid to daydream now. And my life is...almost emotionless.

How come it took me so long to notice?

 

LGBT picnic cancelled tomorrow they're still meeting up so I am looking forward to it, but I suspect it will make it more difficult to get to know my crush better in the more informal circumstances.

 

Going to go to this stupid lgbt youth group tomorrow. I think. It's been cancelled over the summer. I don't really even know why I bother. Its not as though I'm out to any of them. Its not as though they're my friends. I don't even like them. They're shallow twats. But for some reason, I'm going.

 

Hmm a haunted ship? I say yes...adventure time!

 

Because my head looks mismatched at the moment. Like it can't decide on whether it wants to be grey or black so its somewhere in the middle trying to make up its mind. I might leave it though. See how it grows.

In other news, I hate when you go out of your way to help someone then they just kind of ignore you like it was no big deal and they don't want it. I don't know why I try anymore...:bang:

In other other news, I hate when links to shows online load so slow that you can't even watch a minute before it has to buffer again.

 

Swing music, tea, and ramen, today is set!

 

I wish my friends would stop pressuring me to go to Homecoming! If I don't want to go, then I don't want to go! I don't care if it's my senior year, I'm not a fan of the whole affair and I don't feel like being a 5th wheel! :tantrum: