The worst thing anyone can do in life is to not be true to themselves. So, something I have only said to one other person, I AM GAY. I don't know WTF to do. How does a 51-year-old man be authentic? Can't cry anymore..
It is never too late to exploring and working towards becoming and being authentic. Traversing the path towards it might not be easy but reaching its high point of being yourself could potentially allow you to live a life where you are true to yourself and with others around you. As for what I'm thinking: nothing better than listening to the stillness on a Sunday morning. Just loving the quietness on the street.
Back from my trip. I didn't get seasick, so that's positive, but I was terrified of walking around like others on the pram. It was my first time at sea. I was holding onto my chair the whole time. It was a bit stormy, but nothing too much. I was thinking this whole time how this piece of metal can float.
I hate the time change. I wish they'd keep it on either standard time or daylight saving time year round. I always feel blah all winter due to it being so dark all of the time, and I won't adjust to the time change until sometime in February. Yuck.
I hate that we can only stick to being one person in our lives. Wish life had a toggle to switch between characters.
By the end, I think we'll all have lived multiple versions of ourselves. Different characters if you will
A rare day off today, and I've just got back in from a 9 mile run. It's the first long run longer than 4 miles that I've done since the summer. Absolutely buzzing! I've got a nice steak and some eggs waiting for lunch and it's date night tonight, I'm getting taken out somewhere fancy for dinner. All in all, looking like a good day
I did write this week but not much. I'm hoping to correct that later next week, and I'm already starting to plan a bit for the 2024 holiday season, I may write a short story for it in between books of the series I'm working on now. It's a great day for a walk. I'll go after my kid gets home from school.
It feels liberating to be able to cry without holding back. I will never understand why there are people that get angry at you for showing emotions apart from anger as a man.
Could it be because until a few years ago that it was "unacceptable" to show a softer side, that to be "masculine", you had to be angry, cold, and mean? It's horrible people think that way. Men can and do cry too. I see it a lot, online and in my local area. *** I'm having fun yelling at myself for not writing this past week. I want these two books (duology) finished, so I can move on to the next three ideas on my "to write" list.
That's never been my idea of masculinity. Looking at the men in my family, the example of masculinity they've always set was to be strong, dependable, gentlemanly. I've never seen them as emotionless men, but more like men who are in control of themselves and not ruled by their emotions. It's a subtle difference I guess, but it's how I see it. When I was upset as a kid, my mum consoled me and my dad was the one I turned to for solutions.
Thank you. It's a fantasy story and has lgbt+ topics within. It's about self discovery and self acceptance and investigating different otherwordly occurences.