What Are You Thinking?

Pretty sad right now. I find it ridiculous how straight couples in high school can be together for a month and call that a relationship. I don't even have a shot

 

I'm sure you do have a shot. And even then, why would you want a "relationship" that lasts a month? You don't want that. Just wait it out. When the right time comes, you'll find someone who'll allow you to have a real relationship with them.

 

Because I've been sick for so long, I've decided that screwdrivers are the way to go, because they combine the vitamin c of oranges with the antiseptic properties of alcohol.

And now: more essays.

 

Bought the first season of Modern Family the other day. <3

Also, I bought the first season of Community. I love both but I gotta admit that Modern Family is way better.

I <3 tv.

 

I loved Modern Family. That show was great.

 

Why the past-tense words?? It's still on.

 

I mean straight couples in high school know somebody for two seconds then all of a sudden they're boyfriend and girlfriend and they "love" each other. Then they break up after a month.

I don't even have a chance at a real relationship while children (I can't even call them teenagers) are playing husband and wife.

 

Touche. Because the new season wont start till probably next year here in New Zealand so the series is still in the past for me?

I dunno

 

God, why did you make me this way? I've done nothing but try and make your children happy and they've just shit on me. I've lived a miserable life, and for what? I did nothing wrong. You want me to believe in you, yet you "create" me to live in sorrow.

I can take my life faster than you can give it. Your "children" have done nothing but make me cry and wish I was dead for the past 3 years.

 

Oh, well I hope you guys get the new season soon.

 

You shouldn't think like that. Don't live for other people. You don't have an obligation to make everyone else happy. Live for yourself and make yourself happy. I know it's hard to ignore the stupid comments that people make, but believe me when I say that it gets a LOT better when you are out of high school. It's truly worth looking forward to.

On another note about your other posts, I know what it's like to see other kids in "relationships" (some are legit, others are just tomfoolery) and feel hopeless. There are a lot of people who end up having to wait for a relationship. I'm in the same boat. I've never been in a serious relationship with a girl. There are some days when it eats at my brain and other days I don't really think too much about it. At least you will have time to mature and you get to bypass drama. And who knows. Maybe you'll meet someone soon!

 

Just read some of my first posts and threads on ec, I've grown a lot.

 

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So far this is the creepiest fucking thing in this game v_v

 

Who wants to help me arrange my timetable for uni next year because this is screwy :l

 

So I've only come out to like four people from my highschool. Tonight I was talking to this guy in highschool and I came out to him. He was like oh, I've heard. And he wouldn't tell me who told him. He's not really friends with any of the people I told. I don't really care, but I'm super curious as to who told.

Also, he asked me how I did all the christian good things I did. Being gay and being christian aren't mutually exclusive. Jeeze!!!

 

The best dreams always come right before the alarm goes off.

Happy... Happy... Hap--BZZZ BZZZ BZZZ
Fuck I hate it.

 

Je vais l'étrangler ce môme !!!!

 

Just woke up... I think I will sleep again. Nothing to do in life!

 

Woooo less pain but still pain. >.>

 

This first week of senior year in college just keeps getting better and better... ugh. I can't believe that I forgot my glasses at home and my spare ones seem to be in a different bag in my room. At least I have coffee and I'm pretty sure my hair looks awesome right now (from what I could see without my glasses).