I never officially came out to my family and friends. I just sort of "dabbled" into it by asking how they would feel if they found out I was a lesbian, and tried to gauge their reactions. It was mostly negative for the family. I am now 30 and the "reality" of being a lesbian finally hit me as the pressures to settle down forced me to face the fact that I am in fact a lesbian. I have always known. I tried so hard not to be gay, to avoid the hate (very intense) that I would get from my own family and the rest of society. But the thought of lying in bed, day after day with a man just produced such intense emotions that I knew I could no longer put myself through this. I can't do this to myself. I love myself too much to continue to psychologically torture myself to "fit in" society. I booked a ticket for a lesbian speed dating event. I moved to another country where same sex marriage is legal. I literally threw my entire life away to be able to "be" a lesbian without the fear of being locked in prison. I am not loud and proud yet, but I am slowly getting there.
I just switched my dating apps profile. I fell in love at least 25 times. I never felt this way swiping on straight ######....
Hey congratulations on making so much progress. You might not feel out and proud yet but feels like you are heading in the right direction.
Blueplanets.........I am really happy for you! You've made some very good first steps. I think you are on the right path! ***Happy*** ***Happy*** ***Happy*** ***Happy*** ! .....David
Those are huge steps you have made, I hope everything works out for you. I think you have come to the point of no return and can no longer live your life as you did before. For myself I found accepting I was gay literally liberating.
