Hi, so the past few months since I got with my recent girlfriend who lives an hour away from me which I find difficult in itself I have started to have gay thoughts most of the day especially when I wake up in the morning! They make me feel anxious all the time as I am really in love with my girlfriend and am afraid they mean I’m gay! My background when I was younger I always loved masturbating over woman but I started to go on web and sites to find woman on there but could never find any so started masturbing with other men instead as I couldn’t get any attention from woman in real life so seen it as my only option! That became I bit of a thing and I used to do it quite a lot and enjoyed it! I stopped that when I went out with my ex and our sex life was amazing she used to play with my ass a lot dildos and Strapons which I also loved so since I split up with her all I could think about was getting with other woman but when I got with the girlfriend I am with now where the sex is a lot more tame I don’t feel as horny when having sex and all I can think about is her doing something with my arse or somebody else doing something ie another man! Never seen myself as gay always straight maybe a little bi curious but it’s really affecting my mental state all of a sudden it’s horrible feel like shit all the time and have really bad anxiety just need some answers as you can see it’s very confusing I don’t want to split up with my girlfriend and want to be with her for life but these thoughts are making it so difficult! What are your thoughts please???
