I was feeling down, it was like i had no control over my life.. Thatẞsame old routine of doing nothing.. I don't know maybe i just wanted to prove myself that i can jump whenever i want. I wanted to feel emotions. Anything, fear or excitement. In where i live you can take any rode for an hour or a half and you'll see pure nature. I don't even have a license yet, i told my parents that i just want to go couple of blocks away to my friend's house. But something made me go in the wrong direction. I didn't get q chance to see the place in daylight it was pretty dark when i got there. Mostly i just sat in my car, but i walked around a little it was so cold and dark I wasn't afraid of animals and I don't believe in ghosts and demons But i was afraid that some serial killer might catch me. I listened to music and wrote some stories. I got to watch the sunrise. it was beautiful And suddenly everything that i was afraid of in the dark became the most beautiful colors i have ever seen.. I'm not saying that I'm a different person now. But I definitely feel different. Or at least i feel something.
