I don't know what I am, but I don't worry about labels. However, I can say that I started noticing girls in the seventh grade. I think what triggered it the most, was finding and watching a LOT (and I mean a lot) of yuri anime, manga, then novels... PE was the worst, since I had to try not to peek around and wonder what was so interesting about them, so I distanced myself away from my girly friends and hung out with more of the...unique guys. By unique I mean perverted. That didn't work; their influence made my attractions to girls rise even more, so I tried going out with a boy everyone said liked me a lot. It worked...for like 2 weeks and I couldn't stand the guilt and broke up with him through text since I was frightened by my thoughts and feelings coming up. I can't see myself being with a guy or a girl (feelings are different though I guess), it makes me feel weird, and then I get all uncomfortable with myself and start feeling all sick and whatnot. It's complicated to explain, but I do know for sure that I'm not straight.
When my (at time) best friend slept over, I remember looking at her sleeping face and wanting to kiss her. I never did out of fear she would wake up. Few years later I accepted that girls attracted me as much as guys. And boobs. I often find myself looking at other girl's boobs.
I've always known - from at least high school, and signs were there before that I can remember. However, I've spent 20 years in intense denial. and I've finally accepted myself for who I am. As for when I knew for sure - it was going to strip clubs maybe 10 years ago, and they didn't do a damn thing for me. Lap dances and all. Interestingly - I've talked about strip clubs with friends in just the last week (who don't know that I'm gay). Was recollecting my experiences there where you can touch the girls. I left out the part that they didn't do anything for me. Soon though, soon.......
It was in sixth grade when i knew for sure. I couldnt stop thinking about guys. The thought of a girl never crossed my mind haha.
Until recently, I thought I've known since I was 10. But I've been giving it some thought recently, and I think I may have known since I was around 5 or 6. And if that's the case, there was no defining moment where I thought "Hey, I'm gay." I just sort of knew.
Figured I wasn't interested in girls years ago, but really began looking into it when I was about 12. Learned I liked a few of my friends, one of them I came out to (but alas, he's straight), and another one I have a feeling may be gay too. Finally came to terms with it about 8 months ago, and am still trying to come out.
Mine was a lot different from a most of you. I had always thought myself straight. Until a little over a year ago. I got this sudden, intense crush on one of my guy friends. It lasted 4... long... months. Then I moved on and got a crush on ANOTHER friend. That lasted another 4 months... I just accepted I was gay a few weeks into the first crush. I mean, there were so many signs. I sort of knew before hand, but I buried any thoughts as fast as I could.
I had my first crush in 5th grade with this boy. Something about him just made me attracted to him. Never thought much about that. Then, throughout middle and high school, I slowly began to notice guys more; finally it hit me slowly that that was what I liked.
I have always been different and I knew since I was young that I like both guys and girls. I always thought that it was normal since I am an artist. I actually didn't find the name of my preference until college and I had been roaming around the Internet. When I figured out what Bi was I was like 'Oh, so that's what you call it? I thought it was called being a crazy artist!? ;D
I realised that boobs are fantastic. Also, when watching High School Musical, I had my eyes on Gabriella, not Troy.
I was about 5 years old. My father took me to a museum in London .. There was a statue ( the kiss by Rodin) and I was transfixed by the nakedness of the man, then a year later.. David by michaelangelo.. Then real people!!!
I had zero romantic inclination toward males. The girls in my class were ogling the guys and i was ogling the girls. It made it difficult as I had no idea in those days there were women who liked women. Once I found out all hell broke loose. :icon_bigg
I'm laughing out loud at Asari and MM because my older brothers were so excited to show me boobs in their magazines and I thought to myself what is the big deal. But back then couldn't stop looking at the Abercrombie Fitch magazines
hmm, When I Had the hugest crush on a girl, Saw lesbian porn and was turned on.. and more signs throughtout my nineteen years
The first time I ever remember having a crush on a guy was in kindergarten. I dreamed that my kindergarten class and I were playing tag, and if you were tagged you had to freeze until someone came up and kissed you. He came up and kissed me and "set me free". Who wouldn't have a crush after that? I didn't realize that this made me gay, though, until 7th grade. Then I read in the bible that sleeping with a man was wrong. That sent me on a long journey that I'm just now getting back from.
I'm not completely sure ... About realising my attraction to women ... It was gradual ... It started at the artistic "You are so beautiful, I want to draw you" to "You are kind of hot ". I would like to say I fell in love with a woman but I didn't.It sounds more true to the heart. My sexual attractions go most to woman, and the emotional to men. I'm kind of unbalanced in that matter. About being trans, I am not 100% certain I am trans. I know, because I haven't dared to cut my hair off. And because it have at most been a year deciding. I always wanted to be that girl who was one of the guys, But I tried that, and it wasn't enough. For a period of time, I tried to become more feminime, because I thought that was what I was supposed to be like. And now I'm going the completely opposite direction XD. My childhood love for horses, and my lack of hatred towards dresses also makes me doubt. Even though I know thats kind of stereotypic...
I think I was around 12 or 13 when I first realized something was different about me. My friend and I were watching a real porno video (not the cheesy stuff you see on late night Cinemax). I was more interested in watching the men in the video than the women. After that came many years of confusion/denial before I could finally accept myself as being gay.
I guess I could put this simply. The only time I felt that I could actually be with someone was with a girl, until we "broke up." Then two guys that really liked me told me that they'd never feel comfortable being with me because "I'm a lesbian." ...and they didn't even know each other and told me the same thing! It's true, but on a serious note, I can't say I've always knew. In grade school, I had crushes on boys, but would always play doctor with girls. Guys made me really uncomfortable. As I got older, I felt these weird feelings whenever I saw a girl I liked. Then one day coming home from the vet's, I kept telling myself, "One day, I'm going to marry that woman." The woman being the vet's assistant, as she was so sweet to me. And pretty. I thought for a long time that I liked guys--but they really do nothing for me. I'm more comfortable being around them now, but I still love other girls. I guess because I've never had a successful relationship of any kind with a guy, I'm curious about them. Yet I still know my boundaries in regards to that.... and it all started at the age of...well, not so long ago.
That is similar to my situation haha my eyes would gaze over at the guy and never at the girl. Also looking back on this I want to say around 8 or 9 I had this baby sitter who would, literally, everyday put on scary movies and one in particular was Nightmare on Elmstreet (not sure which one) but there was one scene that I noticed I kept looking at every time the movie was on. The scene was when the coach was stripped naked in the locker room and then slashed on his back. My reaction was " Damn I probably should have known"
