i dont know if this is even a thing or spelled correctly but i have identified myself as gay, when someone refers to me as gay/lesbian i feel like they are talking about someone else.. the feeling is really scary like i have lost a part of myself i can bring back to me and i am faking being gay
Maybe you aren't ready to place a "label" on yourself yet? If it doesn't "feel" right, it's possible that it isn't. I identified as bisexual but it never felt right either. Identifying as gay has been the only thing that feels right. Take your time with it. A therapist thati s LGBT aware may also be invaluable.