A boy held my hand and my heart started beating really fast. I've never experienced attraction before so I don't know if that was it? Was it just arousal? Every time I hear about attraction, apparently, people are attracted to people just by looking at them? But I can't relate? I feel nothing when I'm looking at the boy who held my hand. In fact, I wasn't even looking at him when we were holding hands. And a girl accidentally pressed close to like my crotch area and I felt a bit of like arousal or something? I don't know? But I don't find her visually appealing at all.
