I've never had a legitimate romantic crush on anyone, boy or girl. But I get turned on by both heterosexual and homosexual porn and fantasies, with an inclination towards gay ones. In gay fantasies, I actively involve myself in it as a participant. The straight ones are more complicated. The other day I heard one of my friends casually slutshaming his girlfriend while describing sex with her. It bothered me but I later found myself imagining myself in his body, having sex with his girlfriend. I speculated his entire experience in detail; all his thoughts and sensations and I got hard from all this. Since I've yet to fall in love or crush on someone, I'm unsure about my sexuality. I feel increasingly isolated from my male friends, spotting latent misogyny and homophibia in every comment they make. (I know I sound like a jerk, but I can't help it) So I would like to call myself bisexual, but that probably stems from a desire for being more socially accepted. I'd like it if someone could help me out.
