Just when I thought I had gotten in touch with my true self which started some 8 years ago, I managed to open another door with pleasantly unexpected results. Over the weekend I surprised my partner and our friends at a party by hiring a drag queen to help me transform myself into a Diva. Making myself vulnerable by doing drag was an immensely liberating experience almost akin to the first steps I took coming out to others way back when. The planning began several months ago after a friend of mine suggested I should try and do drag. Prior to that I really had not given it much thought; but liked the idea of pushing myself to try new things and experiences. But once I agreed and the plans began to unfold, the time leading up to the reveal was intense and my nerves felt like they were on fire. Each step of the planning process seemed to allow yet another side of me to open up. From deciding whom I would be as a drag queen, to picking out the dress design, to being sized and getting the clothes made (on me by hand) leading up to the day of preparation each step of vulnerability allowed me to learn more about myself and shed many fears and perceptions. The lines between masculinity and femininity became blurred. And when I was made up, wig on, dressed with my high heels on my alter ego awoke! I immediately embraced the Diva that I became. My mannerisms instantly changed along with my voice, the way I walk - everything. As I have historically projected a masculine persona, I was surprised at the feminine side of me that lied undisturbed underneath all this time. And upon the great reveal to my partner and all our friends, I had clearly surprised and shocked all of them as well. Not just shocked, but completely floored is a better description. I am still understanding the emotions and feelings this experience has brought on. It is an entirely new level of self awareness for me that I need to come to terms with and figure out. And I am excited for the adventure that lays ahead as a result. My next reveal is already planned and ready to go for Halloween, I can not wait to see how this next chapter plays out!