how did you know you were gay?

I had only girl crushes up until high school.

Eventually I started to see things in guys from other grades. I began fantasizing during class and eventually lost all interest in girls all together.

There was this ONE guy that convinced me I was gay. So I'd say he was the final straw.

 

I realized when I was about 12 that when I was going through the newspaper looking for the funnies and they have those hot guys rocking it out in the underwear ads I just couldnt turn away.... LOve em.lol

 

I wish you luck in this situation. I know it can be tough when your religion is so severely opposed to it. Just know everyone here is here for you. And we would all be glad to help you with anything you decide to do.

 

Years of watching gay porn and lying to myself. One day I was asked, by a friend who showed no inntention to use that info to harm me, and I just stoped lying and came out in the same time I addmited to myself. maybe I wouldnt have done it if i wasnt partialy drunk and horny (for that friend) but I dont regret it.

 

well, i realized that i MIGHT be gay when i was 12. it took me til 24 to realize that i was gay. i tried to make myself to like women romantically and sexually even, i just couldn't do it. it just didn't click. i had no interest in women period. my thoughts and feelings were towards guys. i came to this realization when i had a crush on a male teacher about 2 years ago now. at the time, i was really so deep in denial where i was trying to say it was something else where i was trying to like women in the same class the teacher taught. i was also masturbating to women at the time too and it didn't do squat to diminish how i felt. i was trying to establish the connection that because i could masturbate to women (there was certain things i could masturbate to involving women though. i used photos and softcore videos. i couldn't get into straight porn though. i wasn't aroused at all. i also had to block out thoughts of guys while i was masturbating as well. i found myself stopping whenever a thought would come across my head because i was afraid that i might be masturbating to a guy.) i pretty much had to own up to it and that led me to own up to everything else within that long span of denial. the crushes that i had on other guys that i brushed off from high school to college, the times i got aroused at seeing other guys, the times where i claimed to like this woman or wanted to have sex with such and such woman when i wasn't even into them to begin with. it all started to make sense. i was completely sure however because i guess i was still in denial so i went on this site for advice and about a year later, i think i've swallowed the fact that i'm gay. it is what it is.

 

I was 14 when I started seriously questioning if I was truely strait or not. I knew right away I wasnt gay, I liked boys but I liked girls as well. So after 3 years of questioning I finally decided that I was bi

 

hmmmm, about 6th grade is when i started to secretly think, :eusa_droo'hey, he's kind of cute, just like her. i like his smooth face'. i had a couple of crushes on some girls in my class, guys began to take a bigger priority.then in 7th grade it turned into, :eusa_eh:'who's she again? never mind, who's he?'. high school, a few crushes on my male classmate friends. many of them had great athletic builds.
one night when i was at one of my friend's sleepover, we used his swimming pool. when he took his shirt off, i thought to myself, 'damn, he's hot. they all are. so hot i could just :dead:' . of course, he was straighter than a skyrim elven arrow, but i still hung around him when i could until i left & graduated. since i went to a christian school at the time, we were obviously taught the bible. one day we came across some passages in Leviticus,& Revelation regarding homosexuals, & started brutally hating myself for a long while12.
for months, i secretly prayed that these feelings i have towards boys would pass. i didn't want to get eternally roasted :lol:. sure enough, they never did. trying out sports alongside my friends so i could relate to them better, and hopefully exercise enough to have as great looking bods as they did sort of helped, but when everyone else has got more skill than you do, you still kind of feel left out as though you did absolutely nothing to help.:icon_sad:
it wasn't actually until early this year when started accepting myself as gay. i don't think i'd be able to do that if i hadn't started secretly questioning, then finally giving up my old religious beliefs last year. since then, i've never felt free-er. being out to myself is truly great, and an even more awesome feeling since i kind of feel as though life has really just started for me:icon_wink

 

I realized I was gay when I was 13 but I remember being attracted to my babysitter in 2nd grade. Early on, I remember being attracted to my peers but because I really didn't understand what was going on, I figured I just "looked up to them". I remember in grade school wanting to be "friends" with boys I was attracted to but just thought of it as idolization. In 8th grade I had a dream where I had sex with a friend of mine but I just discounted it but then when I had a dream making out with another boy I knew something was up. That summer we moved with my fathers job and I remember watching the Real World New Orleans and becoming aroused when Preston hooked up with guys. On the first day of my freshman year I remember walking in and being insanely attracted to another guy and then over the next year or so I began to readdress the stuff that i just previously wrote about and concluded that I was gay.I am still in the closet and I have never told anybody but I think my parents may be somewhat suspecting since I watch a lot of Bravo and such. My family is very religious , and a sibling suspects I might be gay so one day last year they said "If you are gay, I will deny knowing you" which made me decide to wait until I am financially independent to come out.

 

Through elementary school and middle school I'd been chasing this same girl, so I never really questioned much until high school. There was this one guy who I've been friends with for a while now, but it wasn't until high school and the swim team that I started to fall for him. Took most of the school year, but by the end of it I was damn certain that I was into both the girl and the guy...and I still I am (it's been three years now...awk)

 

I actually denied the fact that I was gay all my life and didn't have my first gay sexual experience until I was in my early 20's and started watching gay porn...up until then I dated girls and had a couple of LTR's, the sex was good but something just didn't feel right. I remember being in a line up at a drive in movie getting snacks with my GF when I was 21 and this guy passed by us and I just turned my head and stared!!! I knew he was gay! and he was hot! my GF saw me and just gave me a look....akward to say the least, we did eventual break up and I told her...I had too! we are still close friends to this day although I went through a period of guilt over it. she assured me my happiness is most important.

 

If it helps, I knew when I started fantasising, when my heart beat double when he was near, only because I could see him. When I was depressed, just thinking of his smile made me so happy I could cry.

 

I had a very sudden experience. I was out with a few friends, and one of the guys there was gay. He had a great personality, and he was one of my closest friends. I was alone with him and suddenly my stomach flipped and my heart fluttered. I had no idea what that was at the time. After a week of denying to myself that I was gay, I finally accepted it as a part of me. Looking back now, there were a few signs here and there when I was littler, but nothing major. It just came out of nowhere. But now, I couldn't be any other way.

 

I dont understand y all these people be like "in 1st grade i felt a deep connection with boys that i didnt feel with girls" no elementary school student have sexual feelings toward others maybe you never had a sexual feeling towards the opposite sex but that dont mean when you are a young child you are craving the d i personally didnt know til the summer before high school when i had a guy crush that was much more than my previous girl crushes

 

Would you rahter want to spend a night with the Khal or the Khalessi?

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If you knew at that time,it dosent mean its the same for all.

 

When I knew I was Gay was when I was in my early teens early 20,s had barbies as a kid and would make them kiss and then as I got older I had fantasies about being with a another woman. But I never had any crushes on girls until about 2006 think I had a little crush on a friend of mine but Never really knew right mess aren't I? Lol

 

I guess I've always known. It's always been there.I'm only just in the process of accepting it though.

 

Figured out I liked guys when I saw my first gay porno (I was about 14). I only watched it out of curiosity, but I liked it wayyyyy to much. Had my first (conscious) crush on a boy not too long after.

 

I knew I liked guys since young, but only later (about 16) did I connect that to being gay. I guess I was pretty sheltered.

 

For me , I'll say in my early teens . I was fine when I was little but its really when I was about 13 that I realized I was different from the other guys at my school... Girls did not attract me at all and I was at that age where I should have been all over them.I would find myself looking at underwear male models in my mum's magazine , I would find myself thinking stuff like "he's cute" about guys at my school, My wet dreams during puberty only featured guys...just things like that was obvious signs that I was indeed gay , it terrified me at the time I was like "What is hapenning to me?! But you could not tell on the outside , no ones were aware of those things going on in my head so I was more then happy to ignore those feelings and to play it straight ... Until now that is...