As the title may suggest, I'm rather young (14), though perhaps not as young as some people when they come to terms with their orientation. For the past while I had decided I was lesbian, beforehand telling a few of my friends that I was bisexual, and then realizing that I had little to no attraction to men. The past few days, however, have been a real struggle for me, and I'm not sure if it's because my OCD is acting up or if I'm genuinely having a problem with my label. I have been with a few guys before (rather short-term relationships), but I was mostly in the relationship because I liked the feeling of being liked. Around seventh grade, I started realizing that I had crushes on girls, whereas before I thought having a crush meant being able to tolerate being in a relationship with someone. This wasn't a huge shock to me, because I come from an accepting family and had no problem with liking girls. However, given the idea that I plan on coming out to my family soon, I am absolutely terrified to think of falling in love with a guy somehow. I'm normally not attracted to guys, but there have been thoughts the past few nights that maybe because I'm not absolutely repulsed by the thought of being with a guy that I'm not actually homosexual, which I know probably sounds ridiculous. I am more attracted to girls than I am guys, I cannot see myself in a long-term relationship with a guy, but I think there is a slight chance that I may one day choose to be in a relationship with a guy. I'm just not sure if I can deal with the embarrassment of telling my parents that I'm a lesbian and then having to say "Whoops, just kidding!" Does anybody have advice for a frustrated teenager that can't seem to leave the subject alone?
When I came out to my dad he said that he understands that I am young and if I turn out bi or straight that that would be fine do idk. I don't think this help but I tried. And welcome to EC!!!
Thank you! For both the welcome and the advice. After a bit of thinking, I realized I'm having anxiety problems right now, which are causing me to question my orientation. Even if I do turn out liking guys one day, I'll cross that bridge when I get there. I'm glad I found this website, and will definitely be back soon!
Yea, really, no worries I'm 17 and just figuring out I'm a lesbian! Personally I still can find a guy attractive I'm just not attracted to them. You will probably grow into it more and EC is a wonderful place to figure all these things out! :welcome: to the community!
