When, where and the place you realized that you were you gay/lesbian?!

The first day of 7th grade when we had to change for PE class and I saw the hunky 9th grade guys in their tighty whities. WOOF!

 

Before High School, I had come to the conclusion that I was asexual, after never actually finding any attraction towards females. (Sometimes, I would think to myself "How am I going to have sex with my future girlfriend? How will I reach an orgasm during it?" Oh how silly I was.)

During Freshman year, in my English class, I repetitively caught myself staring at this really hot male classmate that sat near me. Then, I started having romantic thoughts about him. Then, during Sophomore year, I started going full horn dog and started crushing on every single guy around. I inevitably just stopped questioning it. But I didn't really concern myself too much with it. It wasn't until junior year when I would start really yearning for a romantic relationship. Knowing full well that my father wouldn't accept it, I simply hid in the feelings and repressed them.

I went through an internal battle between me being okay with my sexuality to me being absolutely ashamed of it. I still have these battles today, but, I guess we'll see what the future holds.

 

I was 14 and it was mid december, and i was on a trip to new york (isnt that funny?). I was on the computer in the room that i was staying in and I was reading a comic that made me think about how being gay doesnt mean you have to be feminine, now i was having that preocupation at the time, so i guess it just clicked right in to make me realize.

 

I didn't even know what gay really WAS until I was about 12. Sure, I knew some people were gay but I had no idea what it really meant. One day I was on instagram filling out one of those 20 questions things and it said "what is your sexual orientation?" and I was like "shit."
I put down "asexual or bisexual, but not straight" and I was questioning until I was 13 and got a crush on a girl. I thought about it a LOT and figured that yeah, there's no way I want to go near dudes. I don't think there was a specific moment, but I guess I've always just been aware that I don't like boys apart from "some boys have cute faces". I just didn't know I liked girls.

(when i say some boys have cute faces I mean like, puppy cute)

 

I figure it out when I was about 12, when I realized I had developed a giant crush on my (female) best friend.

I would've probably realized I was lesbian earlier if my parents didn't indoctrinate me to think being gay was something bad. :/

I now realize how super gay I was when I was little. I only had female dolls. A lot of the time I would undress them and just look at their boobs, in a fascinated kind of way, sort of feeling whatever the little-kid equivalent of arousal is.

 

Probably earlier but my "moment" was when I was at a halloween party and got really drunk and my friend touched my arm and all of a sudden I felt gay.

 

When I was reading books with lesbian characters or seeing movies with them, I did the same thing. As long as I wasn't too attracted to them, I wasn't gay, because I really couldn't be and didn't want to be. Later I started wondering why I liked these books and movies so much and if that didn't actually mean something... And if real straight people would be quite as much interested as I was in the first place lol.

 

The first time that I had any 'feelings' towards girls, at least that I acknowledged was August 2012. I was watching the music video for Joan Jett singing 'I hate myself for loving you'. It was exactly 0:16 seconds into the song where she kind of winks. BOOM. I didn't come out to myself until three months later, but that was when I first sort of 'knew'.

 

College when I had a huge crush on a lesbian. Not going to lie, I still do have a crush on her kind of lol. Everything I felt before that I wrote off as bicuriosity. It's amazing the things I would write off as "curiosity"... I did the gayest stuff... I just knew that a lot of girls claimed to be bisexual and were really just curious. I assumed the same was for me.

 

A dance at a 3 day 6th grade camp. My guy crush looked really nice, and i wanted to dance with him, but i repressed the urge. then i freaked out afterwards in the cabin. but that was the first time i realized i liked him

 

I knew that I was attracted to the same gender before I even knew the label for it.

 

Just 1.5 years ago, now I'm 17. While I wonder why I find guys more attractive than girls but I thought I just curious at that time. Now, I fully accept myself but still hate label on it, ew.

 

Well this was probably my sophomore year of high school. I was 15. I kept wondering why I was so interested in looking up naked guys, learning about that stuff, and just putting all the pieces together later. Why I liked staying later than usual in the gym locker room, and having a crush on some of the guys in my class. It just all made sense one day.