When did you guys found out you were LGBT?

Trying to sound a bit hip there at the end? And failing?

 

You never know haha but that sounds logical.

 

I knew that I was into guys when I was around 12 or 13. There was a guy in my class that I had a huge crush on, and I thought about him a ton after he moved away.

 

I've done gay acts in the past, I'd say as far as oh, 4th or 5th grade but I never really thought it was anything. Then I started questioning my self around 7th grade.. I brought up all the gay things I've done in the past as well as the straight things. I thought about how I felt with both of them and simply couldn't see if I was any less attracted to either acts and came to the conclusion of Bisexual.. So let's say... 13 when I was in mild denial.. 14 when I was questioning.. and 15 when I accepted myself for being a Bisexual.

 

Knew I was different around 4th Grade but the realization of being gay sank in when I went to high school. Had my first gay thing when I was 11/5th Grade. Being bullied in Grade School and High School, I successfully hid in the closet when I started College. Now i know i'm gay but i won't open it to anyone, even my parents, since the place I live in and the University I go to is full of homophobes.

 

I've known since I was in 4th grade, when I realized that I felt funny when I was around "good looking" boys.. Then I realized that these were the same feeling's that the girls had when they saw the same boy's. I learned in my 3rd grade christian school that guy's liking guy's (or vice-versa) was a BIG NO NO, so I was freaking out.

It really hit me hard in 5th grade when I took my first Sex Ed class at the school (Which covered the basics of the male body) and I was erect the whole video, I mean people saw me shaking in my seat because I was so turned on. It scared the shit out of me that my privates were reacting like that to other guys, and I had to leave the room half way through because I was overwhelmed by my attraction for guys. However, I never told anybody about it because I knew they would tell my parents (And since guy's liking guy's is a no no in christian school I thought they were going to throw me away, the same way you throw away a broken toy)

In 7th grade I had shrouded my emotions for men from everyone until I found out about "internet p**n" and I guess my curiosity got the best of me and I looked it up, and when I saw the man and the woman getting it on, I never took my eyes off the man and jizzed in my pants. It was so scary, I felt this white fluid running down my pants and I thought I popped a white blood vessel or something like that... I cried myself to sleep so many night's, afraid that god made a mistake and that he is going to send me to hell as soon as I died, so I continued to pretend that I liked woman in hopes I could bypass god's standards.

However, my urges and cravings for men and sex were too strong and I finally watched gay p**n for the first time and my release was so big it went everywhere and I freaked out, it had to have been 10x bigger then when I watched straight p**n.. I knew then that I was 100% gay.. and I knew then that I had known that since I was in 4th grade, but I never wanted to accept myself... until now..

 

When I was 13/14 middle schooler

 

I knew when I was about 13 or 14, but I ignored the feeling until I was 16. I had various crushes on female celebrities and friends at school. I had a relationship with a guy, but it was more of a brother sister relationship to me, and we never even kissed.

Around age 16 I really finally accepted that I was gay, and I knew being with girls would bring me more happiness than forcing myself to be into guys.

 

I edited a bit of the post.. But essentially I couldn't have worded that any better. That reminded me of basically my entire school life. It's pretty miserable when I think about it because I could never get very many friends. And the ones I did get were 'odd'. The females in my life were never exactly sexually attractive to me.. Whenever I looked at a girl I wouldn't see sex, but something deeper. But with men, it's just that strong lust of pure physical attraction that really scared me.

In all honesty I was about to just cave in with my despair before I came to this site. It's been amazing this far.