Well i started this thread because i want to talk to other people like me I am 23 and gay so this all started 2 yr before I fell in love with one of my friend who is straight But still i told him that i love him which makes him to avoid me and ignore me Which really pissed me off but i continue to try to gain his attention and win his love And always flirt with him when he was alone After few months he started responding to me and sometime he would flirt with me too and we started to getting close to each other As we live in the same building ,i live just one floor above him ,so we were having lots of time to see each other i started spending lots of time with him many times i sleep in his room also Then one night i was sleeping next to him ( i know he flirt with me but i was not sure he loved me or not because he never told me that) So i was nervous to do anything but i slip close to him put my arm around his chest He didnt resist then i touched his cheeks and started rubbing his lips with my thumb His eyes were closed but i know he was awake so i kissed him in cheeks and wait for a moment Because inside my heart was beating like its going to explode He didnt resist so i kissed him in lips and this make me more confident then i started kissing him and and grabbed him in my arms i touched him all over his body We even remove clothes that night ,we slept close to each other in each others arm. But next morning he kindda act weird he act like nothing happen that night Which was frustrating me so i started forcing myself to him which makes him angry many times He is very aggressive and i am also very short tempered so we end up fighting one night which was pretty bad .He hit me and abused me ( i burst into tears bcoz i love him so much that i cant fight with him ) and he told me that he will never talk to me But i didnt leave him untill he cooled down He was not ready to talk and i was not ready to leave So finally we talk after few hours and he told me that our friendship will only continue if I promise to him not to touch him again and to never to talk about this thing in the future i still love him badly we are still friends but we talk very less and i cant touch him because of the promise And it hurts me too much I still wonder what make him change He live like a stranger to me If someone else has any stories about him/her please let us know ur story
This sounds like a toxic friendship. You knew that he wasn't interested in you, so why continue forcing yourself on him?
Yes you may be right But i am not able to get him out of my head I think i have become too obsessed with him.
Thanks for replying I always know this is the only way to get out of this problem But i kept waiting thinking might be he would love me someday
though I have been in a similar situation, i have to agree with bookreader. he is obviously not interested in you and you need to try and distract yourself from him because its not gonna work out
Hello friends, I hv stopped running after him now And now i feel much relaxed,i am back to life once again Thankyou all for your help and support