What are you thinking?

I need to get my haircut it's been over 2 weeks since I last cut my hair.

 

It's that and not wanting to get up and do anything. T cravings are the absolute worst.

 

Lol I fear the cravings when I do start T. I'm already fat can't Imagine how much worse it will get on T

 

You'll actually probably get leaner on T. You're body is going to put on muscle by converting fat, so the actual number will go up, but you'll appear to lose weight.

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I can't wait for the estrogen cravings though.

 

Yes, this. It will most likely be muscle you guys would be gaining if anything.
This is part of what I am looking forward to if I ever get to that point. As a biological female, I have been working out for a long time and I still don't get the kind of muscles I wish I had. Testosterone will make muscle mass much easier and I actually look forward to it.

 

I'm losing weight. And I need new jeans, cause only 2 fit me and they are pretty old or messed up. Yay, I can finally get men's pants without feeling bad since I have plenty of women's pants that I could wear.

 

Do whatcha gotta do to forget about me and you.

 

Sore throats suck so much. I really hope this is just a cold and not some six-week virus or whatever it was I had in the fall.

It's pretty late but I'm going to head to Dunkin Donuts and get some hot chocolate. I doubt the effect will last longer than it takes to drink it, but I think it will provide some temporary relief.

 

Yeah, I've gotten a bit leaner. I'm a chubby guy who is prone to weight gain, so being able to see that my arms, legs, and abs are getting toned for someone who puts the bare minimum of effort in--it's surprising. Honestly Ryan, I've lost weight since I started T. I started at 153 and I'm down to 138, and I don't work out anymore. I know in the first month, my weight was the same, but I looked a lot slimmer and my clothes were looser on me. I honestly wouldn't worry too much.

I hope your cravings don't bug you like they have for me. It will be three in the morning, and I'll want sour cream and onion chips, mac and cheese, and a milkshake--even if I just had an intense meal.

So this;

 

I normally don't get cravings so I wonder how that would effect me...
Things to never know unless it's tried.

 

Reading and thinking about the women's marches around the world and I suddenly became so sad and despondant because deep down I'm afraid that it means nothing. That in months the fire will be lost and everything will stay the same.

I still feel the pain of being rejected by my family and while the women march, I stay trapped in this cage unable to say a word because I'm afraid to be hurt again. I fought so hard so people around me would understand, so they would see me for who I am and it never happened and it left me so lost and with a feeling of unending helplessness and hopelessness.

 

I don't wanna do stuff!

 

That moment when there's a friendly match at 8:30 am and you stayed up late last night and don't get up for it, and it ends up having to be rescheduled so you can still watch it.

Oh, I know what you mean. I've been busting my (metaphorical) balls for over a year and a half and, while I'm seeing results, they're not where I'd like them to be. :dry: I don't know when I'll get to start T, if I ever get to start it, so I'll just have to keep working and hope I get somewhere.

 

Sorry, everything just got to me for a bit. I feel better now. :icon_redf

 

I'm installing my German textbook's DVD rom right now. Lol, it's been almost a year since the last course, and I'm just now learning that we needed to install them. I'm such a bad student x)

Hopefully, I can get better in German and take up the advanced courses. I want to learn so many languages, but I don't have space in my schedule anymore

 

Try busting you metaphorical balls off for 16 years (though on and off the past 5 due to depression I tried to mask as love with my current ex)and still not getting the results you want :/ It's with stuff like this that makes me wonder if any of those extremely muscley women you sometimes see are actually getting those muscles naturally or if they just non stop work out 24/7 :dry:

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But yeah, good luck bro! I am sure it will happen. Only time can tell.

 

Still attempting to find good music in Italian. So far not having much luck. I'm specifically looking for rock but still not sure where to start.

I hate to say it, but I imagine a lot of those muscley women are at least partially aided by steroids. They run rampant in the pro bodybuilding circuit. I'm not going that route.

Thanks. So far I do like the fact that I'm seeing results, it does help with self-confidence. I just want to see more.

 

Man, everone is going down for the Packers...

 

3 days absent from school

 

So much homework despite it only being the first weekend since the semester started...