What are you thinking?

I'm dumb and don't get it?

 

Man, I want more coffee. And a nap, that would be nice too.

I still don't know why I'm so tired all the time. I'm not feeling as depressed or numb as I have been, which is always good, but still. It's like having the wind knocked out of me every day without doing a thing. For example, I went to BAM (Books-a-Million) yesterday to get a book on quidditch with my partner, and I just remember feeling crampy as fuck and then thought I was going to pass out. It wasn't even that hot outside (at least to me in that moment, despite it being in the 80s or 90s) and it felt comfortable inside.

So I don't know what gives, and I still haven't heard back from my endo about getting labs done. I could care less about the cramps now (I've only been worried about them because how frequent they've been coming on, which I haven't seen since I started T almost a year and a half ago), and I just want to see if I have something going on---and these vitamin b16 tablets I've been trying haven't been helping either.

Blah.

 

The Witnesses are notorious for it. They think every little thing that happens somehow fits seamlessly into bible prophecy.

I studied the same shit she did. I could easily come to at least ten different conclusions as to what that shit said.

As a rule, I disagree with religion, but I let people believe what they want as long as it doesn't harm me or my family. But the Witness "faith" is just toxic. There's nothing good about it. They waste their one lives here on Earth, in hope of a so-called "New Order" where they'll supposedly live forever.

Meanwhile the other 7.5 billion people on Earth supposedly get massacred in a worldwide genocide. But they conveniently forget that part or try not to think about it. Sickening.

I'm going to halt my rant before I get the banhammer dropped on my head now. I could go on for hours, but I won't. I'll just say: if anyone tries to get you into the Witness faith: DON'T.

 

So when you're near me, darling can't you hear me S.O.S

 

Said I'm sleeping, sleeping, sleeping with the one I love
Oh, because the one I'm with is good to me
But he just ain't good enough, oh

 

Yup San Marcos is a good area. There is also Hillsborough outlet mall near Waco.

 

I'm deleting my dating profiles. That might be putting the cart before the horse. But I didn't like the sites anyway and even if things don't actually go anywhere with J, I'm done trying to meet people on those dumb sites anyway.

God I hope things work out with J. He's amazing

 

My entire town is swarmed with people visiting the local horse racing track for opening day (which if you pay even the slightest bit of attention to thoroughbred racing you'll probably know where I live). Even though I know brings in a LOT of money to the area, I just get depressed thinking about the whole practice to begin with.

 

Does anyone else despise Frankie Grande?

 

My sister has a boyfriend. Here the fuck we go again.

 

I hope so too!

Damn. Surgery's just so weird. You go under for anesthesia and then you don't remember anything until you wake up. I've never had surgery before, not even tonsils or dental shit, so it figures I'm trans, right? :lol:

 

Are you having surgery soon?

 

Man, dental surgery was fun for me. I had my wisdom teeth removed a few years ago and I was loopy as fuck trying to get out of the waiting room. My drunk ass was tripping over my feet to racemy mom to the car.

 

I had my wisdom teeth out back in March, and according to my mom, I kept saying "Are we in Detroit?" the whole ride home. Lol.

 

Oh, I thought it was one fake bitch but now there's two fake bitches.

 

No But my friend's boyfriend just had his hysto so we were talking about that lol. Here's hoping though!