What are you thinking?

Yeah, I'm not sure how long/much I'd be able to take of that. I think I'd be tempted to at some point just blurt out, "Dad, I'm *gay*! With a capital 'G'! I don't want a wife. Hell, I want to *be* the wife! And if you want to be a part of my life, you'd better get used to the idea of me talking about dicks and kissing guys, because I've been locked up for far too long!"

 

Feeling a bit queasy and eyelids getting heavy...figure it's best to hit the hay now :sleep:

 

Not a bad way to end the day.

 

My reading response is done! Awesome

 

Still waiting at ER. Probable kidney stones, least that's what doctor's suspecting. But back in waiting room again. ER is how I imagine Catholic purgatory being like.

 

How do you compliment people without making it sound like you're flirting with them? I always want to say something nice to people but I'm worried that they might take it the wrong way.

 

Story of my life. Especially when they're aware of my bisexuality. Although that shouldn't be a problem! Unfortunately, I can end up seeming aloof. I've tried to tell myself that it isn't my fault if people take compliments the wrong way. I can't control what they think. I guess I try to tone down the compliment and/or make it more indirect. I used to feel super awkward complimenting my ex girlfriend. Although we've talked about it and that helped me get over it. Still awkward with almost everyone else though.

 

Same here. I literally cant compliment anyone with out them taking it the wrong way. Its also hard because my two best friends know that I am Bi but they have never really acknowledged it at all and I don't want them to feel awkward around me. At the same time I think that they think that I'm "not technically" Bi because I have only dated a guy.

 

If I see one more transphobic Bruce Jenner meme....

 

I had some freaky dreams last night. This is the third time this week that I've woken up in fear.

 

i need to sleep more and nightmares suck

 

Justy, Lawrence, and florence2000...

Study me, and you'll become a professional, with the compliments!

Lol.




Today is looking to be, so far, a relatively relaxed one. Weather-wise, while chilly, it isn't as cold as it has been. But I'd be lying if I said, I didn't want to go take a walk, hand in hand, with somebody...

... my cold heart is melting, isn't it? Baaaaah~!

 

I thought Bruce Jenner wasn't trans?

 

Homophobic remarks against straight people who are perceived to be gay are still homophobic.

Whether or not Jenner's transition is confirmed, transphobic comments are still transphobic. They perpetuate the idea that there's something wrong with being trans, and I don't think anything is wrong about that.

 

To stay or to leave? That is the question.

 

Back from ER around 3am. Turns out it was a cyst but it's benign.

 

Exactly. I want to say things like "You're beautiful!" or "You're amazing!" without making it sound like I'm wanting to be with them, especially when I'm out and about and I see someone wearing a nice dress or if their hair is on point. There are times where I feel like I can't even smile or say hi to someone without getting the look or them telling me to back off.

 

Being bipolar sucks. I just want to stab my heart to make it stop hurting all the time.

 

Figures I'd come out of the ER looking like a dang heroin addict because of all the bandages on my arms. Poor nurse couldn't get the IV in to administor fluids so she basically just said "alright, we just need to make sure you're hydrated." My veins are so tiny that we couldn't get the damn IV needle to hold. Same problem donating blood.

See, I'm just glad the cyst is normal enough. It's not pleasant but it ain't something I can't manage.

 

Why is this making me so fucking nervous and insecure?