My mind is so overactive. I think one day it might just self-destruct. Also, this weekend was the most stressful weekend I've ever had. My anxiety is so bad I feel like my heart is going to implode. Jeeze, everything is self-destructing isn't it? ... i have issues...
Hmm, ice cream and really gross beer (that I am only choking down so as to not waste it). A combination worthy only of college student! *Raises glass*
I'm not sure what else I can do to get it into her head that we're over, except I know it's not up to me. I can't control that, she has to do it. I am not in control, I cannot make it better, I must not feed her or be guilted into changing my mind. I'm happier without her, and I should not make myself unhappy just to make her happy. I can do this, I can be single, I have worth outside of making someone else happy. What I can't do is experimentally bake in the wee hours, I get the temperatures wrong and a cake that is uncooked in the middle. Oh well, now I'll never know how chilli apple honey cake tastes... (!)
Home alone and depressed.. What am I going to do? Go into town and spend time with my friends! ...well, right after I can be bothered showering and wearing something other than PJs
I totally caught that cowboy boot wearing dude looking me up and down in the elevator with my awesome peripheral vision. :love:
:***: :tantrum: :evil: - School in the mornin' ----------------------- Also I have been smoking everyday for a solid 3 weeks, mellow mood has got me..
The adc I was just with was the biggest douche ever. When we first entered champ select, pretty much every role was called in the first second and insta-locked, leaving me with support. So as I'm typing out the list of support chars I have, asking which one he wants, he's all like "if you don't pick a support champ now, I'm going afk and not playing" and etc. We still had 45 seconds left, I have no idea why he was freaking out. Then during the game I got caught by their jungler (ammumu) and get killed which allows our adc to get away. Now after my death period (as I was starting to run back), the ward I had in the river expired. Ignoring this, the adc continues to push (by himself) and ends up getting caught by their jungler. Then he starts going on this rant about how it's my fault for not warding. I mean...really? If you notice that a ward of mine goes out while I'm dead and NOT there to replace it, don't push until I get back -.-
It's been a while since I was so pissed off that my dysphoria knew that now wasn't a good time to pester me. Today sucks.
^Spencer! ---- Extra shift this week. Yay, except the fact I didn’t sleep much last night. But ah well.
