What Are You Thinking?

I really thought she hated me. But to-day at school, I was doing my hair in front of my locker because it looked terrible because of the wind, & I turned around & asked my best friend how it looked right as the girl I like (who probably hates me) walked by, & my best friend (the darling sweetheart he is) said it looked lovely, & the girl I like said "You look wonderful, quit worrying! Besides, it's just school" & walked off, but all throughout school, she kept smiling at me, & came to talk to me at lunch, but she didn't get past "So, wha-" before the bell rang & we both had to get to our classes.

I'm so freaking confused! Three days ago, she was ignoring me! Now what? Really, the only thing I think that has gone around about me is some girl from the 9th grade & I were dating, but that
wasn't true, & every tike she saw me after that rumour went around, she kept giving me dirt looks in the hall so I thought she hated me.

I'm confused. . .

 

So many thoughts and not a one to tell.

 

I have to start reminding myself to do something with the knowledge that you have, even if that knowledge might be incomplete for the time being.

 

This is going to be a busy, yet fun semester.

 

When I rule the World, it shall be illegal to get out of bed before sunrise.

 

I love Alicia Keys.

 

Oh, you know. Gargoyle stuff.

Lex

 

I really need to go to bed, I'm so tired, but I canNOT get it together.

 

My room is coming together nicely. I've never decorated my dorm room, but for some reason I felt like doing it tonight. I'll have to put up some photos later.

 

it's funny how you think you're over someone then.....BAM!!!

 

Getting sick is so not fun. x_x My older sister didn't pick up the phone yesterday when I called, and the guy I went to high school with didn't reply to my Facebook message....I NEED THE EXACT LOCATION FOR THAT PLACE, GUYSSSSSSSS URRRRGHH RESPONDDDDD.

 

I love how my mom feels the need to interrogate me about everything I post on Facebook no matter how innocent or mundane. It's driving me nuts. Really shouldn't have a felted her friend request.

 

My interview went well, I guess. I got kinda nervous about halfway through for literally no reason at all. And then I was leaving and I remembered a ton of things I should have said about myself too. But, I don't know, I think I still have more than a good shot. She said that they have 2 more applications to go over on Thursday, so I'll probably know how things are going to go by Friday.

 

I am a terrible person. My jealousy will ruin my life. And right now, I honestly couldn't care less.

 

tell me about it!

 

I feel like my bias for brown eyes is shifting to green..... x_x

 

I spent much of the morning being pissed off over an article by a HuffPost columnist in which she calls Jodie Foster a coward for coming out so late in her life despite having known of her sexuality for many years. It just irritates me to no end to know that even someone who's had to go through quite a bit of personal agony over her sexual orientation can be so judgmental, especially since she (like the rest of us) knows hardly anything about Ms. Foster's personal life and her reasons for making the admission when she did.

If she judged all of us by her immensely strict standards, in which personal circumstances don't mean shit, most of us would be cowards because people who come out these days generally find more acceptance than she probably did back when she came out.

Even if Ms. Foster would agree that she herself was a coward, that columnist really should've been more sensitive.

 

I apparently talk too much.



Lex

 

I'm filming a marketing class. Right now, he is going over his ratings on ratemyprofessor.com and other sites like it. He's ranting about the bad ratings that people gave him. It's kind of funny.

 

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