What Are You Thinking?

Ok.. your anxious.. but your taking the piss! atleast ONE reply would be nice.

 

Mom,

Just because you're "grieving for the death of your daughter" and it just "wells up sometimes" doesn't give you a free pass to blow up at me for no reason or randomly treat me like shit just because you disapprove of me presenting as a guy. You didn't "lose your daughter", you're pushing him away.

I came out in November. It's almost February. Get into some fucking therapy already, you obviously need it more than I do.

 

I can't seem to get out of bed...

 

I really need to study for this test...And the internet is a huge distraction. Might have to give it up. Or at the very least, not go on it nearly as much.

I already gave up tv.

I feel like crying. No joke. The internet is my life.

 

I seriously get this. The way I deal with it is by creating a schedule for myself. 30 minutes of studying, 30 minutes of FREE COMPUTER TIME YAY. This helps me stay focused and motivated while studying because I know I'll get my break so my 30 minutes on isn't interrupted. Also, I feel refreshed and not tired or frustrated when I crack my books after my 30 minutes off.

You could try something like this and see if it works well for you, I know it's not for everyone, but it might help!

 

http://nowdothis.com/

^ I find this website pretty helpful.

Also this one:

http://www.marktaw.com/getbacktowork.htm

 

I'm planning on doing something like that, although my computer/twitter time will be less often. I'll be giving my laptop, ipad, tv remotes, and ps3 controllers to my mom. I'm keeping my phone, although I deleted my twitter app from it. The only things I'm going to have is my study stuff and a few books.

I'll probably be back on EC tonight, but I don't know. If I am, it will only be for a little bit. I need to study.

 

am I brave enough to do this?

 

My head is so tangled right now. I just want it to go back to how it was before, i actually feel insane, which is quite an odd feeling, ha!

 

:***: astronomy. I don't care about it. I care about the planet we're on. Well rounded education my :***:. :***::***::***::***::***::***: with a (!).


:bang:

 

Doing work at the library = hell.

(GET ME OUT OF HERE x_x)

 

Kill me. He's gone. I should never speak, it only make things worse. My inability to use words right has tripped me up and fucked up my life! Once again thowen back into the pool kicking and screaming!

 

No more snow! *cries uncle*

 

College, I love you, but you make me so busy and I'm ready to collapse any moment.

 

being ill is boring... im looking forward to any lesson at school even double science - i was 17 seconds late to class and i got a 30 min detention...

 

Freaking out. Big time.

 

the thesis is meh

 

♥♥♥ Blythe ♥♥♥

 

Currently hate my life. Bitches and hoes...