Quick intro I was born male, would consider myself mainly attracted to girls but bi and am 19 After being stuck questioning for 3/4 years I finally came out saying I thought I was trans to a few female friends I played games with online that I have been friends with for 5 or so years. They were all really nice and helped me picked a feminine name that I liked (Amelia) and helped me buy some make up online. The problem I find is I find myself stuck, I have a split where I am like yep I’m 100% trans and wanna be a girl or I’m like nah I’m def Male and should stick like this. My friends then gave me the name of someone else who was trans and I talked to them they said it sounded like I was non binary or gender fluid, I didn’t think non binary was right as I don’t feel stuck in between or neither gender more like both, so i guess for now I identify as genderfluid? What’s the best next step for me as when I do feel like I’m trans I do get dysphoria but when I feel male I don’t, I don’t want to transition my body if I’m going to feel the same way but the other way around if you get it. part of me feels like maybe it would be best to just suppress these thoughts as where I live isn’t really that accepting anyway.